Hello to everyone on the board today. Hope all is well for ya'll and getting better.
I am just sitting back relaxin' for a while to see how it really feels, thing is I have nothing to compare it to anymore. Any how I am having a day that is herd to discribe, my heart and body feel great due to H/P being with me at all times but I think I found out what a brain does and I ain't real sure that I care too much for what it does. Makes things difficult to make out and thinking ain't one of my best qualities anyway it always gets me into trouble when I thinkeven a little. It seems like a tug of war between what I think and what I feel.
Is it true that you should follow your heart and not think so much. I just don't want to be that sick so&so that I used to be, I really want to get it right this time and I am doing it with out my family be aruond all the time to help me pull through.
Well Mike, looks like I posted that at the same time you were posting yours!
It's okay, I think either too much or too little, I think it all depends on what planet is lined up with what sign doubled with which flower is blooming this month.....(joke) hug, Wren
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Funny, isn't it, how friends and a Power greater than ourselves can neutralize nightmares?
Our feelings tend to depend on what we had for dinner, the temperature, the time of the month for women, and they can get the best of us when we end up either doing things we know we shouldn't or not doing things we know we should because we 'feel like it'. Feelings also depend on our thoughts... if I think it is going to be a nice day then I have a positive attitude and I have a nice day. if I think it is going to be a crappy day then I have a lot of negativity and make it a crappy day. If I think your frown is cuz you have something else on your mind then I don't feel guilty,,, but if I think your frown is cuz I'm ugly then I feel bad.
so one of the AA principles is to THINK
and sometimes it is a balance. some of our feelings give us important feedback,, but then we have to think about how to cope. Step 11 helps us with that.
God bless you,
amanda
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do your best and God does the rest, a step at a time
Rick calls it the "Itty Bitty Shitty Committee" :)
I agree with you on the "Heart thing"
Good stuff comes from heart thinkin....yu cant go wrong...
I always get in trouble with the head thinkin...Its called "keep it simple...and dont analyze the sheet outa somethin, that doesnt need analyzed in the first place"
Slow mode...and keep it all in first gear eh?
I can go through a lot of tires ....sitting in the middle of the road..with one foot on the brake..and the pedal to the medal..
Have a serene night..Tex
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Life is short..Live it sober to the fullest...One day at a time...
good to see another texan trying to get sober. hey man, some advice my sponsor gave to me: when you start getting too much "inside your own head" get up and do something - ANYTHING. Do some chores, read a book, do more chores - maybe even try CALLING ANOTHER ALCOHOLIC or check out if there's some 12th step stuff to do ex. visit a hospital or halfway house. good luck man and remember our minds can be our worst enemies at times.
Hey manda thanks for the input. Between you, my freind Phil who I have known a long time on here, and being a texan all will be just great. The main thing that is getting me is that I have a beautiful, wonderful wife that still loves me and I her so very much that it hurts us both, I have not been staying at home sinse I went to rehab for 12 days back on 3/16 the day before our 12th anniversary and its bothering the hell out of me and I beleive her too. I don't even think about picking up again because I am finally working a strong program but I want to come home to stay and not visit like I am now. To be honest with you guys a fricken 1/2 way house is no place for me to be.
Mike..my freind....You are exactly..where you are suppossed to be at this moment.:)
Patience is a biggy for a lot of us...
There are people..Ide like to be with today..there are other places Ide like to be today...there are days that Im lonely..there are days that just suck..period...
There are days that I just dont like being where I am ...and I wanna make things happen..and force things to happen..and resist what is happening..and all that fun stressful stuff...
But ..I cant...You cant...
We just hafta accept a lot of things we cannot change..or have no control over...
You watch buddy...one day at a time...you are going to be where you wanna be....and your wife is going to be where she wants to be....you know why, my freind...?
Because love is a great power, in itself...and with love working through you both...and the Big Guy working with you both...Its all going to be ok...You know it...
We just hafta go with the process...and someone up there..as we understand Him..will take care of the rest..
In the meantime..you take care of you...and itll all fall into place...
Youre a lucky guy...and your wife is a lucky lady...and love is all going to make it come together again..
In sobriety ..good things happen..if we just do the do things...and surrender control of the rest...
Have a good Friday...and yup...luv yu bro...
FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints.
Other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life
When I was suffering from anguish, sorrow, or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord, "You promised me, Lord,
That if I followed you, you would walk with me always.
But I noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
There have only been one set of prints in the sand.
Why, When I have needed you most, you have not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The times when you have seen only one set of footprints
Is when I carried you."
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And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation--some fact of my life --unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until] I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing happens in God's world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, 1 could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life's terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes. . [Big Book, page 44----
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When I look back at those footprints in the sand I see one set of tracks and then some weird looking tracks. I asked God what's up with those different tracks and he told me he was dragging my butt when I got too heavy.LOL
Hello to everyone on the board today. Hope all is well for ya'll and getting better.