Hey, all. I have not been here regularly in a very long time. I have been out of the rooms for around 10 years, and of course you can predict that nothing great resulted from that. Nothing terrible happened, except that I wasted ten more years of my life, doing the same old shit. Anyhow, I am back working on the first 90, and have not gone to a meeting yet. I left here because I was drinking, and didn't want to be that guy who dragged everybody down with my alcoholic drama. Now I am at a point where I want to give it all a try again. I'm ten years older, and maybe mature enough to handle everything a little better. I hope so. Aloha, ST Pete Dean- sorry I didn't call you. Thank you for offering. I was in a bad place, and was mired in it, by my own choice. Starting over is humbling, but this is something I have to do. I know where I start- it is just so hard to walk my ass back into the rooms, admitting that I was a fool for ever leaving. But hey- everything has been hard, for a long time. So tell me- where do I start?
Hey there,
Glad you're back!! This disease is a killier, lots of examples abound. I lost my Brother, Chris 2003 to a car accident in the hills of Los Angeles. Angeles Crest to be exact.
TLH, get back to the rooms, get a sponsor, go through the steps, and give back to those in need.
I don't post to often here.....but, was drawn to your post.
We are all Miracles in Progress.....we share how we live, day by day......I called my sponsor earlier today. discussing an niece of mine who went through an Intervention of 9/19/19.....
She has refused Rehab, not gotten a Therapist and has cut off communication with my sister and her sister----along with person who set up the Intervention.
My sponsor suggested a couple things that sounded perfect.....I do have a great sponsor.....
We can be great sponsors to others also.....part of this great living , evolving, sober journey.
Hope this helps....
Pablomoses
Hello TLH. I'm glad you have had enough of the drinking and are ready to begin sobriety again. I agree with you that it is very difficult and very humbling to go back into the rooms. But as you well know, the rooms is where the support is. Without God and without the fellowship of AA, it is very difficult for one to obtain sobriety and to stay sober.
No. It is not easy to go back in. However, you do not have to say anything about anything until you are ready. You can sit there for 3 months without saying a word if you want to. The point is to listen to what folks in the meeting are saying about the program. As always, take what you can use and leave the rest. You weren't a fool for leaving. You just had to do what you had to do and now is the time to rejoin life without alcohol. Please don't take this the wrong way ... I believe you would be a bigger fool for not going back to the rooms of AA than you ever were for leaving.
Go back to the rooms where you belong TLH. I went 2 meetings a day for 7 years because that is what it took for me. Do whatever it takes for you. Remember ... If we don't do it for ourselves, No one else will.
God Bless and be with you TLH and may your journey to sobriety begin now and continue for the rest of your life.
Welcome back TLH. I've been gone almost 8 years myself. I didn't forget my username (It was Wolfie), but I wanted to start fresh this time. I didn't drink, just wasn't here. I was at face to face groups in my area and heavily involved in some community outreach work. But those are just a few of my excuses. I'll be here more now since there are no face to face meetings in my area at the moment and I'm being stubborn about the online video chat meetings. So here I be for now.
-- Edited by Traylorparkboy on Friday 10th of April 2020 08:08:03 PM
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