Hi all, It has taken me over two years to come back to this site I'm about to start my journey of recovery for the second time. Two years ago I abstained from alcohol for 7 months only to foolishly think I could manage myself on a very small amount be a social drinker. How wrong was I in these two years I got married and had everything going for me. Guess what it progressively got worse and ended as it did nearly two and a half years ago. I have spent the last 6 weeks living in a shared house isolated in my room I have been off work for two weeks. Today i get to go home to my wife and have an opportunity to regain my life. Wish me luck i will keep you updated
Brother you are another miracle in progress as I am sure you know about the struggles of many of us on many levels with this cunning, powerful and baffling disease. Sobriety is not "just not drinking" I found out. The time work, effort and people including a power much much greater than myself was astounding as I supplied the willingness to keep coming back just as you have. Good on You and thanks for bringing the message of willingness to this alcoholic at the start of my day...
Thanks for your kind words. I am about to undertake detox and I seem to be in that very quiet and reflective mood. I know it's the right thing to do but this disease is powerful. Cant wait to start working the steps step 1 one is complete in my mind but it's still currently a daily battle
In my experience step 1 wasn't anything mental. The fact that I burnt my life to the ground (again) and landed in a room of other drunks whipped with my tail between my legs living in a sober house was evidence - that I am powerless over alcohol.