The longer I try to live out this prayer in my life the more impossible it seems. The idea of having serenity even though some people will NEVER forgive me, no matter how many times I make amends is appalling, infuriating, nauseating, overwhelming, etc... And then trying to muster up the courage to change my controlling nature over other peoples feelings seems like an impossibly daunting task.
The serenity to accept the things I cannot change and the courage to change the things I can. Sometimes I think Im delusional to believe this change can actually happen in my life, but I still pray it everyday.
this life has many 'roadblocks' and if we're to live it to the fullest we need to look at things that will help us ... the Serenity Prayer, for me, helped me to remove the roadblocks that held me back from recovery and enjoying life itself ... I had made myself totally miserable prior to changing my way of 'thinking' in recovery ... if there are those who cannot find it in their hearts to 'forgive' you after an amends, then that's their problem, not yours ...
after saying this prayer many times a day early on, my whole perspective of the way I was living changed ... my core 'thinking' changed ... I slowly began to realize I could relax and let life happen instead of trying to force it to be they way I thought it ought to be ... being sober helped me to be 'present' rather than in the brain fog that had consumed me for years .... the 'Serenity Prayer' was one of THE most beneficial things in AA that gave me Hope ...
Love ya and God Bless, Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.
