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All we are asked to bear we can bear. That is a law of the spiritual life. The only hindrance to the working of this law, as of all benign laws, is fear. --Elizabeth Goudge
There is no problem too difficult to handle with all the help available to us. Let's not be overwhelmed. The program tells us to "Let go and let God," to turn it over. And that's where the solution lies.Our challenges, the stumbling blocks in our way, beckon us toward the spiritual working-out of the problem which moves us closer toward being the women we are meant to be. Our fear comes from not trusting in the power greater than ourselves to provide the direction we need, to make known the solution.Every day we will have challenges. We have lessons to learn which mean growing pains. If we could but remember that our challenges are gifts to grow on and that within every problem lies the solution.I will not be given more than I and my higher power can handle today, or any day.
XXXXXXXXXX i am doing this now....steps one two three....with ptsd, it is a constand "self talk" challenge to not FEEL overwhelmed.....my coping skills are very compromosed and i must lean on my HP more, than soemone who is not compromosed.....i saw this this weekend working my handbook, SEEING what my therapist told me 8 years ago....."rosie U have ptsd from the multiple trauma u suffered..and there is no cure---only management"......i went into denial.....
######## working my workbook this past weekend....FACING it.....i cried over it....accepted my limitations..........i prayed this am to my HP, that i MUST...SHALL lean on him/her/it more becuz i accept my limitations...........i am doing this workbook to help me with old inner child/ family of origin pain, and the triggers, made my ptsd symptoms worse for now becuz i am confronting old pain and understanding why i trigger over certain events......like life stresses....i just dont' cope as well...so i need the steps....i need my HP.....i need my program.....and i need me taking care of me.........
########### and yes, my fear my needs won't be met becuz in the past they were not met......now i know i MUST NEED to trust in my HP, becuz i need it......i hope i can look at challenges as gifts, but lately that is all i have gotten, and i am worn out...i have been "HIT" with one thing after another...i was feeling overwhelmed until i finally sat on my bed and CRIED!!! told my HP, "i can't take anymore".....like "is this all there is???? having life push me to the edge???? ....my symptoms have been worse lately cuz of all the UNwanted events occuring in my life this past 6 months.....ONE thing after another....my poor adrenal glands and nervous system are either in "flight or fight" than i get worn out and have to shut down .....its awful....i am in agony....but i can get through this pain until i work THROUGH it.....many times i have considered quitting the program and going back to substance/ self medicating cuz i can't take the pain......i can show soo much love and compassion for those who just "can't take anymore" and they give up......i feel like that lately......this old inner child pain, and this old family of origin pain have made my symptoms/ triggering WORSE.......so screw the challenges, i need some JOY
Oh, Sweetheart. I know what you're going thru. I,myself, have a major anxiety disorder. Sometimes I just want to jump out of my skin, but have had many years to see it coming and prepare. My husband has PTSD, and I know how hard he works on it, to stay level. My prayers are with you, and if I knew how, I'd put one of those icons Toni is so good at, giving you hugs, but feel me hugging you anyhow..... I read this prose yesterday, and it felt so peaceful, so I'll share it with you, altho I dont often do this. (((((((hugs))))) Wren
Persephone in dream This lovely day awash in light, will follow me into the night. Will eddy softly in my dreams, and fall on me in pale moonbeams.
Till I am blooming with the rose, be water as the river flows. I'll fly with owl above the trees, and all Goddess made will be in me!
-Lillian
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Funny, isn't it, how friends and a Power greater than ourselves can neutralize nightmares?
