We cannot make a decision for you ... If you've had enough and are sick and tired of being sick and tired, and are willing to go to any length to get well, then only you can make that decision ... Find an AA meeting place and go get some free help ... one on one help is the best way to start getting better ...
God Bless, Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
So somebody sees you going to a meeting, who cares? Chances are most peoole you know are well aware of your alcoholism. We're never as good at hiding it as we imagine we are.