It would of saved a lot of heartache if it happened that way with me. I had to be thrusted in to sobriety by something much more powerful then self will. I numbed how shitty I felt with more booze. Who the hell gets hangovers? Children and the elderly I suppose. Alcoholics drink away hangovers.
This first one is pretty for a hallmark card light drinker that wants to stop to make their spouse happy but anyone I have ever been around in the program needed a whole lot more. Hope you are recovering well pap.
Thanks Vision, ... not unlike the alcohol recovery, Chemo recovery takes patience and perseverance too ... don't like it, but it is what it is ... still have good days and bad days but at least the bad days aren't as bad as they were ...
Pappy
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The thing that made me alcoholic was the opposite of patience. That thing is instant gratification. The reason nothing worked on me was because it wasn't quick enough to relieve me of the insanity in my head the way booze did.
I have had every single promise in the big book blossom and was still left with this gnawing feeling something is missing. Reworking steps, more meetings, be nicer to people, it all was cool but didn't fill the void. Patience me thinks, is earned when you let the world come to you and adjust accordingly. For the longest time I had this fear of not living up to the perfection the Book hints at and thought if I don't do things a certain way that I was sure to be under a bridge. This whole thing is about patiently letting go of the things that I make up in my head. Bizzaro world.
I was nursing a little resentment towards a couple of my children today. Yep, it happens to the best of us. I been throwing everything at it except forgiving them.
Today, I wear the dunce cap. Thanks for what you do pap.
Good one today pap. The scariest part of my mind is the side that is telling me there is something wrong when in reality everything is flippin great. I have known many that claim to be in touch with their feelings and allow that to do the thinking. Personally, that touchy feely crap has been about 99.9% wrong in my life and was a huge part of the problem.
I was only a baby in the 70s so I can't speak from experience but an aa circuit speaker I enjoy often talked about how in the 1970s there was this "getting in touch with your feelings" craze that swept the nation and it ended up infecting aa and has only multiplied to an unstoppable force nowadays.
I can see how that manifested in my life when I was out there and only when I could come to terms with Feelings Aren't Facts in my sobriety could I overcome a giant hurdle.
Glad to see you liked the post ... as it turns out, so did I ... and as it also turns out, I lived in the 'hippie' era and your description is quite accurate, LOL ...
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