I am new to the forum. I know my life can exist without alcohol but I'm not sure how to adapt it. Is that even the right verbiage? I'm drinking now when I should be in bed. I'm 31 years old and get "the shakes." I love my baby girls more than anyone could know...but get adjetated with them when I shouldn't. That's a piece of me where so much more exists. Just reaching out.
While no one in AA can decide if you are an alcoholic except you, I think you are in the right place. And if you are suffering from the shakes I might "suggest" that you seek medical help for them which are believed to be an alcohol withdrawal symptom which non-exhaustively also includes anxiety and irritability.
By God's grace you have found the AA program, accept God's gift and run with it.