"God, I'm not happy with my appearance, help me lose weight please".

Months go by I put on an additional 30 lbs. Well geez, thanks a lot God. I eventually get so disgusted with the mirror that I finally take action and lose all the weight, plus more. Feel amazing.

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"God, please make this person go away 100% out of my life. She is a trainwreck and bad for my sobriety".

End up having to see this person face to face every few months. They turn into phone calls, turn into texts, to a once a year social media peep, down to cutting me off all contact with the child we made. Now, she fell off the earth but at the expense of missing a child.

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"God, I can't keep job hopping. I need some stability in my financial life. Please father".

Landed a great job that appeared to be perfect and it paid well. Location of new residence forces me to resign. Panic sets in. God are you even there? Off to another job to be laid off a year in, went out of business. This can't be real, pinch me. Month later get a interview at highest paying job I've had and it's close to home. Been employed a few years now and growing. Got stability.

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It never ever feels like it in the moment, but every hardship I have had always has a better outcome that I can never see coming. This is where I draw my faith from. All of this I believe is preparing me for when I kick the bucket.