Trying not to drink today. I got drunk in puplic school for the first time. My 12th birthday. My parents didn't find out as they were too busy drinking with their friends. I am now 54. I quit drinking for 6 months while going through a custody battle about 13 years ago. After being separated i had to work more and had less money to attain alcohol. Sadly....i have graduated to drinking everyday. Saddly i am a functioning alcoholic. Hard worker and thoughtful considerate person. My parents and stepfather were and are alcoholics (my Dad developed diabetes and had several strokes before dieing in a nursing home at 64)
Without going into details i have been unidated with other people's health issues. Whenever I tell people what the last year and a half have been like. They shudder. So I have been off work for almost two months. I am talking to a counsellor once a week through my benefits at work. I have only told her all the issues I am facing not that I am consuming more alcohol now than ever. My partner is also an functioning alcoholic. We feed off each other....keep saying we are going to cut back. Then one of us will go out a buy a celebratory bottle. I have been told that I have a fatty liver. You would think this would be enough reason to stop drinking. And now caring for both parents....and they are still drinking.
I have to stop.
Needto, you mention functioning Alcoholic, and i used to refer to myself as such, but there really is no truth to that premise, on the outside you think your functioning but really on the inside you are not. You are not working, you are lying to your counselor, and you are drinking more than ever. I know you have a great deal of stress, but you must have someone who can help you if you go to rehab. I would not take the fatty liver lightly either, you need to get help for yourself before anything else. You have a job that allows counseling, be truthful to your counselor they can help you find the help you need, but if you are not completely truthful to them , how can they help?I hope you get the help you need and deserve, but you are the only one who can help you get it. I am praying for you.
Bunchie
welcome to MIP. It is amazing how many people come to forums like this and state they "need" to stop drinking. Surely they do, an they have many good reasons, but there is a world of difference between needing to get well and wanting to get well. I knew I needed to stop long before I wanted to stop. It is a writing on the wall kind of thing. My last bender I recall talking to another drunk and telling him how I needed to quit.
And then I got desperate enough and actually wanted to quit and was willing to go to any lengths to do so. By the way 'functioning" is a stage of alcoholism, not a type.
It is very tough two drinking alcoholics together. I don't know what you could do to get around that problem. A few years back I was working with a very sick man, in a similar situation. I managed to get both him and his partner to a meeting, but they were both drunk and walked out about half way through. Another meber said he had seen this before, and made a prediction. One will die then the other will recover.
Within a very short time that was exactly what happened. He died, she got sober. A hell of a price to pay for staying in such a relationship.
P.s. I never drink and drive. I normally never miss work. And i dont know who will take care of my parents if i went to a rehab.
p.s. i always drink and drive. I always miss work. And i dont give a shit who takes care of my parents when i go to rehab.
That's how mine would of read anyway.
My advice is to not expect a few posts on a message board to clean you up. Turn off the screens and get face to face with other alcoholics in your area. They are there buhleedat. There are positions to be filled, commitments to be upheld and actions to take. Best of luck.
First of all thank you for prayers and reply.
I am going to call the place i stayed at for 2 nights and stopped drinking ( 2 nights equaled 13 days sober). I will divize a plan for my parents well being. I am already.
I will go to a meeting tomorrow night. Already reading alot of people's personal messages is helping me to make that step. I know it is nesseccary if i want to be truly happy.
First of all thank you for prayers and reply.
I am going to call the place i stayed at for 2 nights and stopped drinking ( 2 nights equaled 13 days sober). I will divize a plan for my parents well being. I am in the process already.
I will go to a meeting tomorrow night. Already reading alot of people's personal messages is helping me to make that step. I know it is nesseccary if i want to be truly happy.
The whole program was about a month depending on planned start date. It included AA meetings. I will go to meetings while planning enrollment and discussions with them. Maybe i can get sober without making that drastic step.
I respect your sobriety and crave it.
Sincerely
