Hi there everybody. My name is Kay. I knew i always loved the feeling of alcohol when i first started drinking with my friends at the age of 14. I felt on top of the world, and my anxiety seemed to dissapear. Around the age of 17/18/19 it became more accessible and i started binge drinking more at parties, secretly at my parents house, etc. But when i turned 21 and was able to purchase it myself - oh boy..thats when the "fun" (or so i thought) started.
Alcoholism runs on both sides of my family. Two of my uncles on my moms side have died from diabetes/alcohol. I have another uncle on my moms side that is currently an alcoholic. My moms dad was an alcoholic. My dads dad and brother were alcoholics. My dad currently is an alcoholic. (But i dont think he would admit it.)
By the time i was 22 i was drinking a big bottle of gin in 3 days. Every evening. Sometimes id start at 3 in the afternoon and keep going until id wind up waking up on my couch music blaring at 3am and wondering what i did the past couple hours. Gin was my drink of choice for quite a while. I knew i was hurting my relationship with my fiance so i tried to quit, cold turkey. Well on my third day with no alcohol i fell down, everything faded to black, i could hear my boyfriend trying to wake me up but couldnt speak, couldnt see. That lasted for a few minutes. A seizure. Scared us to death. My fiance drove us to the gas station where he bought me a 24oz bud light and after drinking that all was good.
Ive been drinking beer ever since. First regular beer, then that wasnt cutting it so i went for malt, steel reserve, icehouse edge, always two 24oz cans at night. Which in the past year turned into one 24 oz in the morning, two at night, somedays more in between if we were out with friends or whatever.
3 days ago i knew i had to stop. I had way too much the night before, woke up felt like shit, drank a beer before heading to work. The abdominal pain started. Nauseous. Shakey hands. Eye twitching. Dry mouth. My stomach felt so bloated and uncomfortable. I knew i was killing myself slowly. So that night i had two normal 12 oz beers. The next night one, and lastnight was my FIRST DAY in i cant tell ya when that i didnt have ANY ALCOHOL. I certainly had cravings and withdrawal but i pushed passed it.
I know i have to do this to get healthy and feel like myself again. Im almost 26 now, and im ready to do something with my life without having alcohol run my every thought. Im thinking of going to AA meetings soon.
Im glad i found this website, and look forward to getting to know yall.
Oh WoW, your story is so like mine from years back ... I nearly died before seeking help in AA ... been 9 years now ... I highly suggest live AA meetings to start ASAP ... There you will find people just like yourself who, with the help of others, have not found it necessary to drink anymore ... We learn to do this 'One Day at a Time' ...
Love ya and God Bless, Pappy
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Been there, many years, I had to get past the idea that I was going to fix myself, I was sick and needed help. I went to meetings and found what I needed was in the rooms AA. I haven't had a drink in over 12 years. You can do this thing. Wagon
Sunset, you are so young , i wish i came to the realisation that i was an alcoholic at 26, which i was, but it took me so much longer to stop because of denial. I wish you well your life will be so much better without alcohol, i have only been sober a short period and believe me my only regret is i wish i stopped earlier because of the pain i put my family through, and the thought of how i wasted the majority of my life drinking like a fool. Now, i look forward to the good days ahead because of sobriety. Good luck to you .
Hi Sunset and welcome. Like the others I pushed it right to the limit before I was beaten into a state of reasonableness. Then I did what you propose, and never drank again. Its been a long time now, and evrything turned out much better than I ever expected.
Hey Kay. So glad you are here. But please do me one tiny favour. Talk to a doctor. Detoxing from alcohol by yourself can be really really dangerous, as you found out. They will usually give you valium (small doses) for a couple of days to keep the threat of seizures away. I never knew that until I went to rehab, and I'm sure most drinkers don't either.
You are doing the right thing, but please talk to a doctor asap.
Gin was my drink of choice for quite a while. I knew i was hurting my relationship with my fiance so i tried to quit, cold turkey. Well on my third day with no alcohol i fell down, everything faded to black, i could hear my boyfriend trying to wake me up but couldnt speak, couldnt see. That lasted for a few minutes. A seizure. Scared us to death. My fiance drove us to the gas station where he bought me a 24oz bud light and after drinking that all was good.