This morning at 9 AM I am meeting with my Hospice worker for first time. It will be an in-home visit. Yes, my health condition is really so bad that its now time to start putting a solid treatment team together so my transition from flesh, to spirit can go forward with some level of dignity in caring hands. It saddens me some that I will not have someone from my support network or family with me during this part of the journey. I am a little bit scared, anxious, with a huge window of unknowns for me yet. However, I do not feel alone at all. I know God is on this journey with me. He will hold, protect and comfort me just as He has every day for 27 years of Sobriety. He will be there with me and for me. This I do believe with my heart of hearts. How can I possibly know this? Because I worship a God that is All Forgiving, Full of Grace, with an abundance of Mercy. In short, I did not need to earn His Love. He freely gave and continues to give it to me. If you'd like to visit me and exchange some Love (God), get and give a hug... that would make my heart smile. Now, here's nutso John... "Gawh, that lady sounds so pretty on the phone, maybe she's my next girlfriend!!". LMAO
Hi John, ... you just made it hard for me to say anything ... but I ... I love you man and am sending my virtual (((hugs))) your way and keep'n you in my prayers for an easy journey to a much better place ...
You will always be here in my heart ... YOU made a difference in MY LIFE ...
Love you and God Bless and keep you, Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
I signed on here because I'm very sad my cat died last week, my chihuahua a month ago and I was at a funeral for a friend yesterday - and here you are in hospice making jokes.
This is my first post. I have a lot of pain (it's what drives us to addiction right?) I'm 3 years sober but had about 5 years prior to that. It's such an accomplishment to say that you fought addiction and won. You've spent most of your life awake and really LIVING and you're to be commended for that darlin! You did it!
Everyone's time is short. We're all going to find the exit eventually. I pray that you deeply feel the peace that you deserve. That you know you've touched lives, lived a good life and you will be remembered. I have no question that there is a God and there is life past all of this. Embrace that. That there is comfort from pain.
My love to you John. Message me anytime. I could always use the chat.
I feel sad right about now. I've been a member of this board for a little over a month and it saddens me to hear such awful news. I've come to appreciate all this board represents, even during my limited stay. You have inspired us all, both in and out of the rooms, and your spirit, I do believe, will continue on for generations to come.
Oh, one last thing: My sponsor always says "the death of any alcoholic is never in vain", and for once I agree with him. You served the sober community well and it's now our turn to keep that legacy alive. Thanks, again, for the memories.
Well John you have blessed my life and I thank You for that, God works through others and I appreciate the opportunity these boards gave me to share and get help, these boards are resources packed with help for us addicts and alcoholics, I really can't say enough here.
I have a hard time with this topic I have seen a lot of people passing this last year, 5 people last year from my home group, all but 1 passed away clean and sober, that 1 person committed suicide after a relapse she lost hope and gave up on her life which is very sad to see but the other 4 passed with dignity and honor and that's how I want to go .
John hold your head up and stay strong I will be giving you a call soon we have no talked in quite awhile I look forward to having a chat or 2 soon, Blessings.
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And God said to me "I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger" , Uh yeah I got sober LOL....
John , you are a brave man , I have been away from the board for awhile , I work 2 jobs so my time is limited. I just want to say you are in my prayers and I hope I have courage , faith and dignity such as yours when I am at the end. Thank you for sharing your experience it really helps people like me.
Bunchie
