I love it Pappy , it's amazing how much more positive my thinking has become with sobriety. Drinking gave me the melancholies, which in turn became downright depression and anxiety ; but after a short time period my whole demeanour at work and home changed. Positive energy is now guiding me through my day, with help of A A and this forum and reading . I am so glad I stumbled upon this forum, it gave me the courage to attend meetings and the power of positive thinking.
I am giving this a try. Day 1. I am an alcoholic. Please help me help myself. I don't want to drink anymore. I am ready for this.
Welcome KayKay. We're here for you. I'm new to this sobriety thing myself. I have 104 days. I read the Big Book and the 12 and 12 book. Been going to meetings. It's working so far.
I like it, it makes so much sense. Thanks. I am struggling everyday to keep it together and not take a drink to ease the pain. My first day without a drink was on 12/8/2016. When I feel lost I go to this site and read the big book as well. I think the worst part is that if my mood changes my man is quick to judge and talk shit to me and accuse me of things like drinking. I cant be perfect all the time, there are times I just don't feel happy and there's nothing I can do about that. I feel like here I am trying so hard and here he is accusing me of shit. it drives me nuts. also a little part of me feels like he does it cause he wants me to fail. but guess what I'm not going to fail I am trying to find myself and go back to being that person that I once was. why do you think he does that??? please help me understand how to deal with that!
Big congrats on just over a week sober ... it just keeps gettin' better, but isn't without hardships ... We need to learn a 'new way of life' at all costs ... even if that means getting new(different) friends ... even letting your judgmental 'man' go judge someone else if that's what it takes ... Our old friends tend to keep us 'trapped' in our old ways ... If your want/need to stop smoking cigarettes, you don't buddy up to a smoker ... same goes for drinking ... Be sure to go to some AA meet'ns to find you the friends you need to support you ...
Stopping drink'n ain't easy ... you need all the support and encouragement you can get ... Start with a meet'n and come back here and let us know how it went ...
Love ya and God Bless, Pappy
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Haven't went to any AA meetings yet. I like this a lil better because no one knows who I am. The only friends I have really kept don't really drink or party and they support me 100%. My man has been begging me to stop drinking but I just don't think he understands what I am going through and I don't expect him to I just want him to support me. I may go to a meeting but I just really don't like the one in this area. I need to find a different one. But thanks to both of you for replying to me and welcoming me. I appreciate it.