In me there is darkness. But with you there is light. --Dietrich Bonhoeffer
A speaker at a meeting said, "To continue something when I'm making mistakes takes emotional courage." She was talking about making a decision to turn her will and life over to her Higher Power, and how it works in her life. To keep turning our wills and our lives over to God's care moves us into unknown territory. We will make mistakes, which is why we need God's care as we experience it in the Third Step.
It's hard to keep going after we stumble, especially when we keep stumbling over and over again. With abstinence comes the clarity and awareness to look honestly at ourselves and our mistakes. We want to stop making them. We want to be perfect. We're impatient to change. But change doesn't work that way. Instead, a caring God cushions us when we fall, loves us without conditions, and gives us everything we need. If God can forgive us when we make a mistake, how can we not do the same?
If I fall today, I will fall into the arms of my Higher Power. And then I'll get up again.
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
I can get just as sick frantically searching for a solution as i can wallowing in self pity
Slow that down and read it again. We are runners and when a disturbance pops up, we will run to a principle, a person, message boards, anything. Some issues that come along that we like to run from, just need to be felt. Sit on your hands and observe what is going on. We recovered alcoholics can get hung up on being solution-driven that we lose touch with the fact we are supposed to feel our feelings before we squash things with step work.
