im still with you guys...(and gals). I read the new posts every day. I just don't post as much as I used to, cause sometimes I feel like I'm just repeating myself, and I don't have a whole lot new to add.
So, I guess I will repeat myself again.
life is way better without that nasty poison.
once you lose the desire for alcohol, it's not that hard to NOT drink.
do the steps, go to meetings, get a sponsor, and, like I did, research alcoholism. The more you know about it, the better equipped you'll be to do battle.
There is no battle once the desire has been lifted. If you don't lose the desire, you will be using willpower to not drink, and that is a very hard thing to do.
It sez it in the BB. (Paraphrasing) "the desire for alcohol has been lifted from these individuals". Once you lose the desire, you can get you're life back again, and be happy again. The AA program will help you to lose the desire.
You have to step outside yourself for a minute, and try to see alcohol for what it really is: a nasty poison, made by microbes shitting and pissing in fruit and vegetable matter that has decayed past the point of being rotten. It's just as poisonous as bleach or almost any other poison. The only reason we were able to drink it is because we got our bodies used to it. How many times have you thrown up vomit from drinking? Well, that's your body telling to to quit drinking poison.
it sounds so simple, because it really is. We just make it more complicated in our own minds.
-- Edited by Baba Louie on Saturday 4th of June 2016 01:25:09 AM
Glad to hear from you Baba ... ... ... by the way, great post ... AND, it was only by 'repetition' that I was able to swallow this program, LOL ... (yeah, I know, I sound like a broken record too, LOL) ...
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
I get what you mean about repetition. Certain things don't change. My story is what it is, it won't change. The disease of acoholism hasn't changed. The principles that worked so well in AA since 1935 haven't changed. Human nature hasn't changed. There are no new defects of character, really nothing new at all. Except that I keep changing and growing, and my perceptions change, and my understanding changes, and my faith grows, and I have new (to me) life experiences, and I see others change from broken down wrecks to worhwhile human beings, so there might still be something to look forward to and soething new to talk about. More will be revealed.
Getting to watch someone else go through the transformation is pretty cool.
I'm not a super patient person, though I am WAY more patient than I was 'pre 12 steps'. I have a hard time sitting in meetings and waiting for that one person out of... hmmm I dunno... many........ to grab on and go. Then you have all those who are ready to grab on but grab for the wrong thing, or onto the wrong sponsor, or or or.... all those things that 'go wrong'. If we sit around (or put chairs away) long enough we get to see some of them get it all straightened out and see all those 'wrongs' as part of 'a perfect path'. But I'm just not that patient anymore. My life is so full... so full of watching children grow, piano students grow, vocal ensembles grow, my friendships grow, my community family grow, my husband grow, society grow etc etc ---- that it has become very difficult for me to wait in meetings! Also I've gotten to see it truly happen a couple times now so I'm good lol.
They said get honest - well this is honest. It may not be super empathetic or conscientious lol!
I don't happen to believe I hold responsibility for 'killing newcomers OR saving newcomers' with my words or actions. I have a HP who takes that load off. All that is needed is out there and available in our information/interconnected age. I believe that I cross paths with whom I'm supposed to. I feel peace when I chose to believe in my HP and that he/she/it makes no mistakes at all.
It's good to see ya Babs.... I am so glad we crossed paths. When you emerge from the darkness and display as letters on my screen, I feel happy.
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
xo