So I guess I'll just jump into this without any premeditation, Honestly if I do that I will just loose interest and concern and just say fuck it. I am at the time 22 years old, I am a male, White, and Bisexual. That's me in a nutshell, Ohh and I am an Alcoholic. Honestly I don't even know why I'm here, Yah I drink alot. But goddamn it I work with the liquor, It does not get in the way of my job, and that's the money ticket right? My personal life, shit its so fucked up its gunna be a long ass time before I get it fixed and all back in order. I live in my mothers basement. I have like 5 friends I never fucking see or hang with other than one I work with. I hate people but crave sooooo many friends. I am emotionally damaged. I have a VERY ADDICTED PERSONALITY! I am DARK, TWISTED, and just plain FUCKED IN THE HEAD! So be warned. Idk if I am even going to be allowed on here, I did NOT read the rules, I am acting impulsively, which appears to be the only way I can tackle my problem HEAD ON! So bare with me, I hope I return.
KK , most of us would not care if you walked backward with wellingtons on . As Dave said "IF You ARE an alcoholic" , maybe we can help you.
In time , IF you have to look at other issues , you Will . But NOW . 1st Things First . Lets look at the grog bit . IF Booze is costing You More than
money . You , may have a problem . I Believe most of us on this board Have got AND Stayed sober Through AA (Alcoholics Anonymous" . And by
Attending REGULAR meetings . KK , most of us Were *ucked up , twisted , kinky or all the above . WE Got sober , then sorted the rest out . WHEN
We got control of the drinking issues . If you look at the 12 steps of recovery for AA .
The 1st 3 steps , PICK Us up.
From step 4 to 9 , CLEAN Us up.
Ten , Eleven & Twelve KEEP Us up.
KK , I went to a new meeting , for me . In Sydney , 2 weeks ago . As I went into the building , the ground floor did not look as if it hosted an AA meeting.
I got to the elevators & six blokes were ready to get in the next one going up . We got in , one man said what floor do you want . I said I will go with you.
He pressed the 4th floor , we got out , walked around a corner , there was the meeting room . KK , I trusted these men to take me to the right place.
They were All from a treatment centre . I could not tell whether they were alcoholics or not.
KK > Trust Us , as We have trusted each other. You wont regret it.
-- Edited by Mystic Man on Sunday 15th of May 2016 06:28:09 AM
Sounds like you are reaching out for help of some kind ... this board primarily helps those who have decided that 'drink'n' is a major problem in their life and they want advice on how to change that ... and what we do here is help those who want help get on the right track toward an enjoyable, sober life ...
You're welcome to comment as you see fit ... although, your comments are usually better received if the language is 'toned down' a bit ... most of us have gone through a pile of shit in our lives and know exactly what you're talk'n 'bout when it comes to alcohol dependency ...
So if you don't like your alcoholic life AND WANT to change, then maybe we can help ...
Love ya man and God Bless, Pappy
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So I guess I'll just jump into this without any premeditation, Honestly if I do that I will just loose interest and concern and just say fuck it. I am at the time 22 years old, I am a male, White, and Bisexual. That's me in a nutshell, Ohh and I am an Alcoholic. Honestly I don't even know why I'm here, Yah I drink alot. But goddamn it I work with the liquor, It does not get in the way of my job, and that's the money ticket right? My personal life, shit its so fucked up its gunna be a long ass time before I get it fixed and all back in order. I live in my mothers basement. I have like 5 friends I never fucking see or hang with other than one I work with. I hate people but crave sooooo many friends. I am emotionally damaged. I have a VERY ADDICTED PERSONALITY! I am DARK, TWISTED, and just plain FUCKED IN THE HEAD! So be warned. Idk if I am even going to be allowed on here, I did NOT read the rules, I am acting impulsively, which appears to be the only way I can tackle my problem HEAD ON! So bare with me, I hope I return.
Hiya Kermit;
I'm Marc and I'm Alcoholic.
I read somewhere that you and Ms. Piggy are getting back together...
Kirmit Ours is not a light hearted condition...it is a fatal disease and it takes hundreds of out of this world on a daily basis. It often takes the opportunity to totally destroy our lives before it does that and for many we continue to drink to excess so that we will not feel the pain while it is happening.
You have the justification phrase, "Yeah I drink a lot....but" down pat and that 3 letter word "but" is probably part and parcel of why you keep at it. I learned early on that when I thought or said "but" I was over looking all of the evidence before it for creating change.
I drank because I could and the urine colored skin was from something else. maybe too much cauliflower...let the doctors find out not my problem. Yes I drank to toxic shock several times in my drinking career and so toxic shock is several steps beyond black out "but" ...
Want to get sober? Try humble first or being teachable. Get rid of every and any justification you have for your condition...don't drink for 24 hours and get into open AA meetings. Listen with a wide open mind and get help from guys and gals who know what a mind and mood altering chemical is and will do even to those who resist it and learn as much as you can about the power and baffling and cunning nature of this disease...Don't drink while you are following the suggestions of the old timers and doing the new awareness work or you will miss that which may save your life and the lives of others.
