I just had a falling out with my wife about my inability to be honest. It had come to light that I was using my son's bank account attached to my PayPal account to make purchases. This was after I had told her that I would take his bank account off the PayPal account. My purchases caused an overdraft on his bank account and he was upset. This was not the first (or 10th) time I have caused my family hardship due to financial irresponsibility. I have dug myself a deep hole with them as far as trust goes. I don't think they will ever be able to trust me again.
If you are alcoholic, then you're in the right forum ... if there are other issues other than abusing alcohol, then maybe other professional help is needed ... in AA we learn that total honesty is one of the keys to our recovery ... we have had a habit of lying, cheat'n and steal'n over some period of time, so our trust level with family and friends was very low, if not non-existent ... thru the 'making amends' process and change'n our ways, we have slowly, over time, gained some trust back ... but that can take years, depend'n on how long we had been untrustworthy ...
Let us know more about you, if you're an alcoholic like us ...
Pappy
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