Welcome to MIP Redchile ... we're glad your here ... 

We know of all the problems alcohol usage can cause in one's life, believe me, we've "Been There, Done That" ... from your post, you seem to be nearing a 'crossroads' in your life ... you don't see how in the hell you can keep drink'n OR how in the hell you can stop ... both present problems ... 

If you continue to drink, we can absolutely guarantee one thing, death ... as you are seeing evidenced by your mom ... sorry, the truth can hurt ... 

If you'd decided that you want to stop, and need help, then you're starting at a good place ... please come here and discuss your thoughts and concerns with us, we can help IF you're WILLING to accept some advice and suggestions ... We hope to hear from you soon ...

Love ya and God Bless,

Pappy