Hey all. Just dropping by to say hello and I made it to the two week mark. I can't say it's been easy but it feels good and I'm proud of myself. :) I watched the eclipse tonight and felt very humbled and peaceful.
I'm still fighting cravings constantly but I haven't given in. Today was really difficult and I pretty much had to take it one minute at a time. Quite exhausting, if I do say so myself. It's hard to believe that I made it into double digit days of being sober. I couldn't imagine being able to do this two weeks ago, but here I am. The world didn't end, I didn't die, life continued and, forgive me if this sounds weird, has been both wonderful and terrible. Wonderful because I enjoy being sober...terrible because-damn it, I'm sober and I don't always want to be. LoL. No idea if that makes sense to anyone but myself. But through the ups and downs, I didn't pick up a bottle from the store or go to a bar. I kept busy, counted my blessings, and asked the universe to keep me strong.
At any rate, hope this message finds everyone on a good and new day. Peace and prayers. :) xoxo
Oh man, you brought back memories of my 1st two weeks ... yep, absolutely horrible ... moments of extreme elation and moments of terrifying horror ... and best I remember, I had to put out the thought of next week, next month, next year, I had to concentrate on 'just Today' ... yes and sometimes, just the next few minutes ... but like you said, the world didn't stop turning and I didn;t die, I survived ...
now's the time to really get into the BB of AA and get serious 'bout work'n the program ... let's make your recovery a good, strong one ... there are others out here that need your help ... and your family will love you for it, well, if they can understand what being sober means to you and them ...
Congrats, ... thanks for the update ...
Love ya and God Bless, Pappy
-- Edited by Pythonpappy on Monday 28th of September 2015 08:36:21 AM
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Dr. Bob, cofounder of AA and a very spiritual fellow, had cravings for his beloved scotch for years after he got sober. He fought the cravings by carrying the message to others who had the same afflication he and all of us have struggled with.
Keep doing what your doing. Go to meetings, work the AA program and don't drink.
After my first 2 weeks, all I kept thinking was "wow...ain't it a great day to be alive". Look up in the sky, and be all happy cause I wasn't drunk. And it just gets better and better. That, I can promise .
