I've been looking at my computer screen for 10 minutes before writting anything, because I am so afraid to face my drinking problem. However, it is time to change. I am a 45 year-old woman who has been binged drinking and blacking out since I was 15. I'm tired of being an alcoholic; I'm depressed, scared, and feel paralyzed. I don't know where to begin.
I echo Tanin. I was paralyzed for a long time also. Face to face meetings are where I would start if you can do it. On line meetings are excellent for folks that simply cannot make face to face, but if you hang out in on line meetings out of shame or embarrassment, that will be a half measure and it will not be a service to you. Going to my first face to face meeting was the most difficult part for me. From there, I just did what people told me to do.
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Welcome to MIP caz, ... yes, I too, know what the 'deer in the headlights' look and feeling is all about ...
We have all faced the choice of going on to the bitter end OR seeking help from those who are/were just like us ... for the years I've been sober, I find that going to 'face-to-face' meetings are best ... for it is there that one can 'see' the miracle of recovery right in front of them ... and then participate in fellowship with those who have been in your shoes and have found the tools of recovery ... I've also found that most everyone needs a guide through this process ...
Try your best to get to a meeting ... we've all had to go through those '1st meeting' jitters ... but it is there you will find the solution to all your problems ... we are not a religious cult or anything, just simply one alcoholic helping another alcoholic to recover ... we help each other to learn to love life again and how to participate in life all without alcohol ...
Let us hear from you frequently so we can help make you feel 'at home' ... this may be the most important decision of your life ...
Love ya and God Bless, Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
We have all been right where you are right now, scared, alone and just tired of being
sick and tired.
I was fortunate and knew someone in AA and he took me to my first meeting. But after that I
went on my own, folks will welcome you, just don't be afraid to ask for help.
You have no idea, how willing people will be to show you how we did it.
Pick up the phone call your area AA, google AA find a meeting and start your recovery!!
I swear to you it that easy, you just have to be willing to take that first step.
Welcome home dear one. Keep coming back. We have a lot of good people here to talk to anytime. Try to post every day for a while about how you're doing. I was/am a mom but made it to 90 meetings in 90 days when I was new - and posted here every day for that time too. It helped so much!
Hugs and Love
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
