For most of my life, I have been terrified to pray, afraid that anything I asked for was going to come back to haunt me. (Clearly, I thought of God as someone who grants wishes - and not benevolently.) It wasn't until I found the program that I started praying to be a conduit of God's love and light. And what a difference doing so has made in breaking the egomaniacal obsession with my own self, my own desires, and what *I* need from God in order to be happy. I think back to being younger and praying for more and more than all the blessings I already had, and picture that smug prince-like look on my face, and am so glad to be far away from it. I'm never going to pretend to know anything for certain (I maxed out that privilege when I was drinking), but I do feel as though in humility and service to others is the closest to God that I have ever felt. I think it speaks to some sort of inherent human nature to love, which is strengthened by compassion and connection. Anyway, just some thoughts.