It will be 1 year on October 21st that I have been sober. I have had an emotional year with many good and bad turns. My husband and I separated then reunited things got better for us and then he was diagnosed with ampullary cancer. He underwent a surgery called the whipple. During the last 4 months I often had the feeling of having to have a drink but did not. I could not always attend meetings because of work and being home the rest of the time caring for him. Anyway I survived. I never thought it possible but I realized something while we where going through all of this cancer business. Drinking would not of made anything better. Drinking only made me feel numb but it did not fix anything in my life and most times made things far worse. Life is not perfect we still have to deal with another surgery and chemo but I am still standing sober and feel good.
It has been so long since I checked in but have still been around I hope you all are well.
Yeah, good point about drink'n not making anything 'better' ... I remember do'n it just to 'check-out' of life for a while ... when I came to, things were always worse, never better ...
I was recently diagnosed with advanced prostate cancer ... went through a few weeks on my 'pity pot' and the thought of having a big bottle of booze close by started to sound appealing ... I finally got back to the board here and realized that that would never solve anything ... I had started think'n about me all the time, not others, which I had become accustomed to doing for the last few years ... not good ...
I'm much better when I'm actively living our program of recovery and not left to my own devices ... glad you're back on the board, please stick around ... and CONGRATS on your upcoming BD ...
Love ya and God Bless, Pappy
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