Went to my morning meeting and reflecting on today's reading. There's a easier softer way. It's called sponsership. They won't bite you, well maybe just a nibble. I know for me like most newcomers the anxiety of asking someone to be my sponsor. But I wanted something he had that I didn't. That was clarity, peace of mind, happiness, emotional sobriety. I couldn't trust my diseased mind and sometimes still can't. So I called and relied on him for guidance. Today doing the right thing usually means doing the opposite of what I normally would do. Why don't we do this? Because it is foreign to our nature and a unnatural act for a alcoholic. The true love in this fellowship especially those closest to me not just my sponsor, is a debt that I can never repay. It came with no expectations no strings attached and given freely. Quite simply put. Our primary purpose is to stay sober and help another alcoholic achieve sobriety. This is why it works and has to be given back in order to keep it. God extends his grace to me on a daily basis and gives me choices. I only have to be willing to receive it.