Finally admitted to myself and my wife that I am an alcoholic. Last night something potentially very dangerous almost happened. I knew I had a drinking problem but I didn't realize how bad it was. I have been searching for meeting groups in my area and will be attending tomorrow. I have lost God and my true self some time ago, not sure when it all happened but it did. I have a pretty good job/career, a beautiful and supportive wife and 4 awesome kids! So how did I become this? I am assuming the how or why doesn't really matter anymore just the end result. I am praying for clarity and happiness and am jealous of those that can have just 1 or 2 or none at all and be totally fine with that. I yearn to feel "normal" and "productive" and be able to love and enjoy what I have before I push it away. Thanks for reading this....Tomorrow is the beginning of something new and beautiful.....
Welcome! If you give yourself to this program and work it with vigor and honesty you will find something better than being "normal." So happy you found AA.
Chaya
I was referring to my first meeting...I can't do it myself....
This is very important realization. There are many paths in AA recovery, some tougher, some easier. But all require this realization. I was fortunate to have the same realization in early sobriety and I have never forgotten it.
Good luck, Do4.
-- Edited by Tanin on Monday 1st of September 2014 04:08:39 PM
There are many paths in AA recovery, some tougher, some easier.
I'd love to hear them Tanin....Please do Tell.
Welcome to the site Dadof4...You said something in your introduction that really hit home for me.
I have lost God and my true self some time ago, not sure when it all happened but it did.
This was me....That complete sense of hopelessness. I believe they refer to it in the Big Book as pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization. I knew alcohol had whipped me...But I had no clue how spiritually sick I was. Luckily for alcoholics of our type there is a solution. And those 12 steps are it. Let us know how the meeting goes Dadof4....Ask someone there about getting a Big Book. It's great to have you with us.
Thanks to all for the warm welcomes. I know I am not unique in my struggle and am selfishly thankful in a way that others have gone through this before me. I will be happy to share my first of what will be many many meetings......
Hi, Welcome, Attending meetings is a great way to start becoming sober. AA has done wonders for a lot of people suffering with alcoholism. It took me a while to "Get" the program but my life has improved dramatically from where I was a few years ago by attending meetings and learning it with time. I actually enjoy practicing this now and I don't need alcohol every day anymore. I am aware of a lot more of the effects of drinking now and my life is much better than when I was getting drunk every day, and I could still easily drink, but I don't want to.
Welcome :) Asking for help is the hardest part - bravo for getting this far. Keep sharing like this and let nothing convince you to give up on you ever again. Everything will fall into place xxxxx hugs xxxxx
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
