There is so much here now.  The richest deepest ocean of love and laughter - and I have to pinch myself... that it is my life.

I get to take this where ever I go... I do not need to fear moving away.  It really is gonna go according to the universe, and everything will turn out alright in the end... and if it's not alright... it's not the end yet.

Today is another beginning to another end.  An end of a stretched out season of creepy little fears and worries that I try to push down under my foot and try not to look at.  Instead, they prick and prod until better actions take place, and lead - as promised - to better thinking. 

For me, for so long - better thinking was peaceful mindful thinking.  But now I see I need all of it to appreciate those in the now moments... my name will never be "OM".    It is what it is.  The Universe unfolding as it will.  I am an extension called Natasha for a while - just a short while of infinity.

There really is no better or worse, there just is.  God is.  I accept what is today and I smile.  Some days I just can't do it, and yet I am gifted a smile anyway.  Usually that is thanks to you :)

Right now, if I could bottle these kids up, the laughter, the bouncing on Daddy, the games of chase and hide and seek, I would.... but then... I would look at it and set it free again.  I just want life... all  of it... whatever it is - and I finally know deep in my soul that if you love something... you set it free.

I am grateful to be free.  I am grateful I want to be free.  I am grateful I want others to be free.  I am just so grateful xooxxooxooxxoxoxoxoxoxoooo