Maid my first two child support payments today the divorce is still looming. I'm glad I can try to pay for the rest of the bills too until I find a second job. I know I'm doing the right thing by her but I'm also sad that this might come to pass. I know she needs her space and that is the best thing for now. I wish I could make wrong right but I can't. Went to two meetings praying called sponser. It's all in Gods time and hands. I have no control of it. Still no place to live permantly. Still sober! Please pray for my family and I in our time of need. There's so much hurt and hate. I pray God heals their scars.
(((((Enigma))))) Prayers just sent up for you and I will continue to keep you in my prayers. Sounds like you are doing what you need to do and you are an inspiration to me to stay sober even though things don't always go the way we want them to. I hope to see more posts by you and will definately keep my eyes open for them. BTY
I can't even imagine what you're going through, especially when it comes to family. It's like a tale of two cities minus all the drama. Families can either do one of two things: Become a wonderful support network that can stand the test of time or a pernicious toxin that never goes away, that's how delicate relationships can be. They can also shape our lives from here on in, if we're not careful. So I would tread lightly on this one.
The truth is: All of us have experienced some sort of setback at one time or another, even in the light of our true aspirations. It's a place I conveniently call 'the wilderness of despair'.
I struggled immensely during the first year or two, even after my so called spiritual awakening, but the tale of woe kept on coming. I even tried organized religion, including reconciliation, but in the end nothing worthwhile ever got resolved. It's like a prize fighter who goes 12 rounds without earning a single point, it was that defeating. And, of course, it was only the beginning.
Here's the thing: I had to come to a place of complete surrender before I was finally able to 'move forward' -same as most people, but I did not have to go it alone. There were others who are willing to make the journey more pleasurable. It became a springboard to something very, very special.
If it were up to me; I would forgo the logistics for now -including the unknowns- and focus instead on the solution, like everyone said -that's how the miracle unfolds by the way.
I would analogize it this way: The clock is ticking, the anticipation mounting, the realization almost certain, but it's always a great day to be sober even in the midst of so much adversity. How your life unfolds from there is totally up to you.
This is the beginning of a very long journey, my friend, a journey whose end is still uncertain. So be on the lookout for something better and make that change now before it's too late. It's how fate gives way to freedom.
I hope you turn the tide into something better; I hope your journey is as fruitful as it is enlightening; I hope you're able to reconcile with your family, once and for all. I can only hope. Onward...
-- Edited by Mr_David on Friday 18th of April 2014 02:22:55 PM
