Went to court today to give my version and setting child visitation. It worked out better than I expected even though we are getting a divorce after 16yrs together. Some people can't heal from the wreckage of the past Namely my wife who I still love dearly and wish her the best. We have two beautiful children together. Don't know what the future holds for me but I'm sure it will be great. I turned everything over to God today. I wish things were different but if nothing changes nothing changes. So to Rose I'm sorry for all the alcoholic damage I have caused and beg your forgiveness. No one is a winner in this everyone loses. You are still the mother of my children and I love you very much wish it could have been. I pray for you everyday.
It hurts to lose a marriage to this disease. But, God can change every bad thing to good. Just stick with Him. Looks like a good night to catch a meeting? Mike D.
I ruined my marriage due to drinking. Wish I could go back and undo the pain and harm I caused to my family. All I can do is stay sober, make amends, and pray the Serenity Prayer. It has helped. I hope that you will find peace which, for me, is impossible if I pick up a drink again. BTY
My behaviours as an active alcoholic cost me my marriage and offspring. My home. My good name. My self respect self esteem and self worth.
I have still lost the company of the woman I married who divorced me after 34 years and I still love her but I haven't been in love with her for years.
I have still lost my children who have stated that they want me to stay out of their lives.
I have rebuilt my sense of self.
My but life is better sober than it was drunk. Harder but better. Seriously.
Nothing lasts forever. Things can xhange. This too shall pass. I am grateful to my ex for her continuing support of my son and daughter. One day I'll be able to tell her
that.
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It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you got. BB
