So, you surrendered. You let go. Now you're ready to face a particular challenge. So you hunker down and garner all your forces. And you hit the wall again.
What's wrong? you may ask. I'm doing all the spiritual things I'm supposed to do. And things still aren't working, I can't get anywhere.
Did you ever try to get a key to unlock a door, and you tried and tried, and the key just wouldn't open it? The harder you tried, the more frustrated you became. So you stopped trying for awhile, relaxed, and tried again. Voila. The key fit perfectly and the slightest turn unlocked the door.
There's a gentler way of being in the world, of trying things, doing things, going about our business.
Whether I'm tackling a specific project, enjoying a new relationship, or grinding through some miserable situation, my first inclination is to force myself and try too hard. If one cup of tea tastes good, I'll drink five. If I want to express love or concern for someone, I'll overdo it.
"If it's worth doing, it's worth doing well," doesn't mean if it's worth doing, try harder and harder. Doing it well means relaxing and letting the actions unfold gently, naturally, without force. Pull back a little. Relax.
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
The child looks around the room and see's the steps and leaps others are taking. The promises coming true. The insights and growth spurts in others are happening all around her.
Then as she begins to compare, she feels maybe she should just slip away... that it will never be true for her.
The all loving higher parent whispers in her ear: "My precious one, you are here today! You showed up! You're doing it! You're exactly where you're suppose to be. There is no right or wrong place to be on this journey, just relax and be keep being a part of. That's all you need to do. Now be happy for those who are doing well, it will make you feel good about you, and that's all I really want for you - is to see you make loving choices for yourself so you will have a good life. Wish them well, admire their progress, keep on keeping on, you are okay, and loved, exactly as you are."
And then I realize it is my voice, and it is my daughter.... and we are listening.
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
