Way to go Grace, ... proud of you ...

Are you asking how to get more 'home group' members ??? ... ... ... That would certainly be a great topic at the next 'group conscience' meeting ...

Thanks so much for your encouragement. I appreciate it and kind of expected to hear "Well, it's about damn time". (and I know it is). The silly reason I took so long is the driving thing. Still no permit (a fear) and this particular meeting I had volunteered to make coffee around 3 or 4 months into my sobriety. Well, I should have found out the facts before i opened my big mouth. I had to be there an hour earlier and the meeting is several miles and I was worried my bf would have appointments (the type of work he does he gets those) and not be able to bring me. Then I told the member I would take a bus. Well, I found out their closest stop to that church was 2 miles away and too far to walk. I didn't and still don't have money for cab fare and although I probably could afford the price of fare from the bus stop to the church, I was worried about not getting there on time to make it and set up 100 or so chairs for the meeting. Long winded way of explaining, I know. Anyway, I boo hooed through the whole meeting because in the past I have volunteered to do things like women's clubs, at my daughter's school and not followed through with my commitments. I felt like I let the group down, although I wasn't a HG member of it. I had to go back and tell that guy that had been making coffee week after week that I couldn't do it. I felt embarrassed, ashamed of myself and his reaction to me was to fuss at me why I didn't have a driver's license, and to tell me that it was really important to volunteer, so I felt he was upset at me. He hasn't been too friendly to me since that happened. Anyway, I kept going back to this meeting as I love it so very much and told him I would keep bringing treats and do them every week for Tues and Thurs. meetings unless something unforeseen kept me from doing it. I also told him that I would come early and help make coffee whenever I could. I feel better about it as I have always felt guilty since that happened months ago.
I'll stop about that. Those six cups of coffee have kicked in guys!
Gonee......I have kind of felt that way when I go to this one. It is a nice mix of people. First I thought it was too clique-ish for me and then I realized I was being too judgmental and needed to look at the group as a whole......(a "whole" lot of alcoholics all coming together for the same purpose as me). Also, as this is the largest group I go to, there are more people to help. Only thing is, I feel badly when I feel I don't bring enough goodies for everyone. Those guys devoured my last cake and when others would go up and look in the empty cake pan, I felt so bad. But sometimes I make things and have left-overs. Cupcakes--I just cannot figure out what people have against cupcakes. They are such happy looking little cakes too--in their little paper or foil liners and all....(Gosh, I sound like I am high. Promise I'm not.)

Yes Pappy. And that may have been the type of meeting we had last week because they brought it up. I'll ask. Great advice, Ruby and I will do that. Just need to really work on courage to speak in a group. I know they are going to expect me to chair meetings.

BTY