and to think , when I got here . I a PhD . But for my case it was a >

Poor Helpless/Hopeless Drunk.

with a Lot of  I - S - M's . @ th top of th list was -

Incredible Short Memory

I sponsor/sabotage Myself

I Self Me

In Side  Me

but ended up with

Incredible Spiritual Moments

it could get worse , I could be nuts -

Not Using The Steps

or get paid -

Pitiful  And Incomprehensible Demorilisation

& th Osm's told me to use the MMM for my 1st year of sobriety 

Meetings Meditation & masturbation