One of the dangers of being alone for me is that I start thinking. Now for a normal person that may be OK, but for an alcoholic like me that almost always means trouble. Colored by the disease of alcoholism, my mind seeks problems and reasons why nothing will work out. Even my so-called "good ideas" soon get me into trouble.
If I dwell in the bad neighborhood of my mind I can also get pretty depressed. I once heard that alcoholism wants me dead but will settle for drunk. If I get lost down its streets, soon I'm cut off from you and the light of my Higher Power and I start believing its dark thoughts. Depressed and alone, my disease has seemingly won - until I reach out.
Today I've learned to share my thoughts with others and to let them into my thought process. I'm no longer comfortable going into the neighborhood of my mind alone and find over and over that things always work out best when I take company. Today when I'm feeling anxious or depressed, I ask myself if I'm in the dark neighborhood of my mind alone. And if so, I call you.
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Copyright @ 2013 Michael Z
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Whew Pappy....this is "me" dead on. It is almost like you came to my home, hooked up a machine to my head, and sucked that info right out of my brain. And you know....that's why I come back to this board and spew all over the the place to you guys with my "bad neighborhood" mind....to get it the heck outta there! Thanks for posting!
(my "bad neighborhood mind") + (me coming to this board ) (support I get from this board) (happier me)
Oh, I also have to give credit to my Higher Power, who is God for me, and who I am learning to lean on more and more. ("sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly")