Good for you Liz. It sounds to me like you had a bit of a row with alcoholic thinking this am and it sounds like you won. Way to go!!!!
Oh, and 5 weeks sober is wonderful!!!!
The new version Liz is that it is permissible to still act like an a-hole and decide not to drink anyway. That way I get to work on both problems with a clear head at the same time. Perspective is important for me now in sobriety...I don't do as many negatives as before. I see 5 weeks sober as hugely different than 5 weeks dry. Just for me. Keep up the "good" work. (((hugs)))
It sounds like the ego tried to get in the way of the spiritual and, realizing this, you got out of the way. Five weeks is 35 miracles. You are on the path to a great life if you want it. Sounds like you want it.
Love and Light to you!
SolanoGypsy
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"And we have ceased fighting anything or anyone-even alcohol. For by this time sanity will have returned."
Alcoholics Anonymous, Page 84
An addict is WHAT I am but it does not define all of WHO I am.