Just playing...I wouldn't know the end of that joke cuz I wasn't there. In fact, I can't remember the last time I was in one of those but I could certainly describe the front door of the bar that shares a building with the Alano club I sometimes frequent. Imagine that, the "mission field" right next door to the "church."
So by my count, I have not popped in here since September. At that time, I had finally secured a home for my daughter and I. Wait, allow me to digress and rightfully assign credit to the God who secured the home for me. (I had very little to do with it outside of staying sober and showing up where He told me to.)
I am still in that home, still raising that little girl, still working forty hours a week and still sober. I finally bit the bullet and decided to get internet service so I hope to not be such a stranger. I love how we share our experience, strength, and hope here. Our story is a powerful one.
Life, for me, keeps happening. Sometimes the magnitude of all the living that God packs into my hours gives me pause to step back and say, "Whoa.." and not in the sense that I would have it slow down or change.
I've had some incredible burdens and some unbelievable blessings.
Haven't had a cigarette since August 10. (Funny how I didn't quit until well AFTER a bout with pneumonia was over and didn't even quit on purpose). Had some struggles confusing my job with my Higher Power and my coworkers with my support group. (I must say I do have some outstanding coworkers who are tremendously supportive, though). Had some car troubles I was told were irreparable. Sat back in awe as folks came out of the woodwork to offer transportation assistance should I need it. Felt even more blessed when my car was repaired for a ridiculously low asking price and returned to me. Faced some fears on the family front. Gave in to some fears by succumbing to panic attacks. Watched those attacks subside as I consciously reached out, spoke my truth, lived some steps and basically just stayed sober no matter what.
It occurs to me that living life on its own terms means taking the good, taking the bad, and LIVING anyway, appreciating life anyway, feeling the fear and doing the next right thing anyway. (And maybe even doing it with a smile on my face).
Well, that's it from me for now. Looking forward to being more present here. I've missed you guys. Oh yeah, and if I go to sleep sober for the next week, I will be two on the twelfth...and that IS a miracle.
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"And we have ceased fighting anything or anyone-even alcohol. For by this time sanity will have returned."
Alcoholics Anonymous, Page 84
An addict is WHAT I am but it does not define all of WHO I am.
(((Vee)))...welcome back and WOW!! You've been working it as suggested and harvesting the good crop. That's how it works when we work it...miraculous and we learn that we are worthy of those miracles when we alter Higher Powers from bottle to God. Yay for you and you daugther and you groups and everyone else you touch as a sober woman. Love the share...It keeps me working it myself. Keep coming back (((((hugs)))))
Loved reading your post. Glad you're able to be with us on this board now. Isn't it amazing to watch God do His work in our lives when we surrender to Him??!! Many more blessings to you, Mike D.
Beautiful post SG...Thanks for the share and I'm glad things are working out for you. Congrats on your upcoming birthday and I agree with you....It is a miracle.
