I kind of blew yesterday...and had a wake up call from another poster which made me realize that I was the one who chose to feel the way I was feeling yesterday, which caused me to feel blahhhh and not use the time my HP gave me wisely. (Except for coming to this board and going to a meeting yesterday as I don't consider those bad choices at all.)
So today is the second day of a bright new sober year!!! 2014! I remember thinking back when I was a teenager that we'd all probably be flying around in our cars by this time. I'm relieved we are not, as it is tragic enough for the injuries--especially from drunk drivers-- which occur while driving on the ground, it would be a lot worse to take out even more people if we were crashing down from the air. (Or something like that, I haven't had all my coffee intake either, Liz :) Anyway, got off track there, and I'm sure I will be writing "2013" for a month or two until I get used to 2014. Today I have a mental list of things I want to get accomplished. At the beginning of last year I had some resolutions, wrote them down, and didn't stick to them for very long. Of course, I was drinking then and that is the biggest reason I couldn't stick to it or much of anything....except drinking. I am sure the people that go around and collect cans in the alley behind me appreciated all the beer cans I would save for them and I know the beer/wine/ABC stores had a better year because of my drinking.
Now I am sober and excited about making each day count and it is my decision to choose whether or not I am going to spend that time depressed and listening to those little a**h*** voices inside my head tell me I'm a failure and underachiever or spend my time engaged in a project that is going to reap rewards. I'll check this board later but for now, I am off to start on my list!
Now I am sober and excited about making each day count and it is my decision to choose whether or not I am going to spend that time depressed and listening to those little a**h*** voices inside my head tell me I'm a failure and underachiever or spend my time engaged in a project that is going to reap rewards. I'll check this board later but for now, I am off to start on my list!
Please don't take this the wrong way .... but I was thinking ... one does not do things in this program expecting to be rewarded, but rather, we work and live the principles because we know it's the right thing to do ... this becomes the 'norm' for us ... we do things because we want to do the right things ... the rewards ??? ... that's only a 'by-product' of doing what our HP wishes we were doing all along ...
Love ya and God Bless,
Pappy
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I guess I am confused....I meant by "rewards" as being income and satisfaction for working hard...something I haven't done enough of, but I stand corrected.
I think that's awesome. I expect rewards being sober. It's the promises. They say in meetings and here if you work the program the promises come true. I'm so glad to read this betterthanyestetday52. You've seemed a little low around the holidays and the attitude can sometimes lead the way.
Keep your head in a good space. I don't know how many meetings you make but if you have free time that's always a good place for me to go. I did a lot! I do one a day usually.
Love you so glad to see your feeling better.
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We all drank and know how to do that. It's living sober that I am learning about.
The terms "spiritual awakening" and "psychic shift" are seemingly used interchangeably. For me, my biggest psychic shift (and hence I guess it was a spiritual awakening) was that I could no longer afford to indulge in pessimistic, negative, victim-like, self-pity type thoughts. I had so much of my ego invested in that junk. That alone....that was the largest chunk of my spiritual malady. My cravings and urges to drink really diminished when I surrendered that thinking and way of being.
Say "NO" to the itty bitty shitty committee in your head!
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
All I'm go'n to say is that they predict 12 degrees for a high and 3 degrees for a low next Monday or Tuesday here in the South ... There goes the global 'warming' thingy out the window, eh ??? ...
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
