11 days since my last drink. Feeling good but a little disappointed. I could be sitting on five months right now. Why? Just really ticks me off sometimes!! I am still on the good path.....just for today. That's all I can do. Just wanted to get that off my chest.......:)
I could be sitting on years of sobriety myself had I stuck with the program...well actually "worked" the program years ago when I first went to an AA meeting. Like you, I am on the good path, too, and am grateful for everyday I stay sober. The past is gone.
Beautiful, every day free of active addiction is a miracle. Just For Today,, keep your thoughts on those who aren't using(drinking alcohol)and finding a new way to live and you will have nothing to fear.. You can do this and WE can do it together.. Keep coming back and share from your heart to free the internal monster .Time will take care of itself
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
One of the newcomers at the meeting last night was talking about his time in the recovery home. He was talking about the counsellor telling him to focus on the "consequences" of the next thing he was thinking of doing.
You being at 11 days is the consequences of taking a drink. When we are fully informed we have freedom of choice.
A book I am reading (Dennis Wholey "Why do I keep doing that?") talked the other day about true freedom comes from self-control.
Congrats on 11 days !! We all have to learn our (painful) lessons. You will be wiser/stronger next time.
Actually you have just as many days as we all have (I do understand time) and that is this day only. Consequence planning as mentioned by 2 granddaughters is a primary tool; one I was taught by my early sponsorship also. Alcoholics are reactors primarily so our consequences usually follow our "habits" and our habit is to drink unless we do or plan something else instead. Don't sabbotage your present sobriety with "couldas, shouldas, wouldas". Accept your present string of days and plan for today with the consequence of sobriety. For me I have physical work to do with responsibility to others and for myself and then I have lunch and then a bit more work and care of my home and then my meeting tonight at 6...interwoven between and into all of this is prays of gratitude and meditation and the willingness to help another in need. Have a great 12th.
Actually you have just as many days as we all have (I do understand time) and that is this day only. Consequence planning as mentioned by 2 granddaughters is a primary tool; one I was taught by my early sponsorship also. Alcoholics are reactors primarily so our consequences usually follow our "habits" and our habit is to drink unless we do or plan something else instead. Don't sabbotage your present sobriety with "couldas, shouldas, wouldas". Accept your present string of days and plan for today with the consequence of sobriety. For me I have physical work to do with responsibility to others and for myself and then I have lunch and then a bit more work and care of my home and then my meeting tonight at 6...interwoven between and into all of this is prays of gratitude and meditation and the willingness to help another in need. Have a great 12th.
You are right. All I can do is plan for today. Tomorrow does not matter.......yet. Thanks for the post!!
Congrats on 11 days ST. As mentioned, the could've, should've and would've will keep you in the problem, self-centeredness. That's part of our diesase(EGO) leveraging your mind. The EGO loves to bring you to the past or future to keep you sick. It has no defense against the present moment. Present moment living removes the EGO and re-establishes you to the authentic you and releases you from pain and suffering. This new life can be established by completing the 12 Steps and working The Program on a daily basis.
