Whenever I come here I find pearls of wisdom mixed with good humor and genuine care and concern. It's the bright spot of my day and I look forward to coming on before bed as it puts me in a positive mind space before going to sleep. I would like to participate and share but I find that I'm very moody these days and I when I do post it sometimes comes out badly, all snarky and confrontational. I think I'm just going to lurk and enjoy the board but hold off on posting until I'm not so all over the place. Or maybe just limit myself to emoticons only for a while. That way I can avoid starting off on the wrong foot.
-- Edited by Butterfinger on Tuesday 19th of November 2013 02:42:29 AM
Butterfinger, I personally enjoy your posts, they bring some interesting responses and I learn from them. I also appreciate your honesty, you express thoughts and questions about the fellowship that I myself have had (and I'm sure other newcomers as well) I hope you continue,,,,Peace
I'm not an oldtimer butterfinger...I've only been sober for 2 and half years....That's after drinking for 35 years so that's a long time for me. I enjoy your posts...And I can promise you...I was not a pleasant person to be around early on...I found my self apologizing constantly.....To everybody...I was fricken mad at the world...They'd taken away my best friend...My Bud... and I couldn't see him anymore....And none of this was my fault!! Damn it!!!
Sorry.
I didn't find this site till I was six months sober...I had already worked the first nine steps...I was living in steps 10, 11 and 12....And like now....I had a lot to learn...But I enjoy that...I like being teachable now....I don't have to question everything...I don't need to pre judge. And that's good. I'll tell you one way I would have used this site if I found it right out of the gate....I would have asked a lot of questions here as I worked the steps...I had so many...I bounced them off my sponsor and the oldtimers at meetings....But I would have used this site for that too....Some great sobriety here....Use it.
And don't ever hold anything back...If you need to share it....Throw it out there...We're alkies....Not much we haven't heard before.
Butterfinger, Please keep posting. I look for your posts everyday and look forward to reading them. I read in a previous post that you thought people were condescending in their replies. I don't think any of us alcoholics mean anything personal but like they say "Take what you can use and leave the rest". I would not only miss seeing your posts, I would miss that cute little smiling finger as well :)
Zoomtopz---great post and gave me a couple of laughs.
You made my day Zoomy, great post, LMAO ... ... ... great mental picture, LOL ... ... ... Good posts everyone ...
And yes Bf, ... ... ... I was VERY confrontational in the beginning ... like Stepman said, I'd lost my best friend, though one that was killing me, I was not a 'happy camper' ... ... ... I tried to find fault with everything ... in fact, I think I really didn't want this program to work, I think I was looking for a good excuse to go back to drink'n ... ... ... but I learned and knew deep down, that was certain death ... and not a pretty one ...
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BT...Yayyyy!!! And I see that you have and I am working down the postings and have been reading/replying to some of the ones you posted, which are great ones!
I really enjoy it too - and I am glad you're here like Ruby. You really are just what we needed around here. We do all need each other :)
Ya know - someone around here told me "If people have a problem with ya - then really - THEY have a problem." It's not ours to pick up and solve for them :) Though we need each other, we don't have to fix each other. We just get to be here and present our recovery in a way that reflects the HP of our understanding. We all get the same amount of love from HP who ever - what ever - where ever we are. Takes a load off doesn't it? xxxxoxoxoxox
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.