I just wanted to post and say that I am feeling pretty good today. Most of my prior relapses have happened either on a Friday night or Saturday morning. Its saturday night, no booze in the house, not going out, and I am sober.
I have only missed one meeting which was the night my neighbor came over, which I made it through. I went back to a meeting this morning which I was pretty nervous about as my old sponsor goes there and I had really loved that group. My sponsor had always been available for me. They saw me come in and out so many times, I had a lot of guilt about going back their again. Wonderful thing, they were all still there, and greeted me with open arms, even an old timer that never really talked to me and usually gave me dirty looks because I was intruding on his meeting, started up a conversation with me in a very nice way. It felt great to be back there and it got me through today. Days are soooo much longer when your sober, I was more productive today than I have been in the last 6 or so months. Partially to keep busy, but partially because I was enjoying working in the yard sober for once and not half as*ing everything, then seeing what I had done in the morning and being disappointed in myself. Tomorrow morning, I'll look out the window and feel good.
In laws coming tomorrow..please say a prayer... lol!
d_ Mahalo for the honest update. That can help us look back on what it was for us, what we found out and how it is now. Triggers to inventory for me are good ones. Keep coming back.
Good for you d willing and thanks for your posting. Very encouraging to hear how you got through your situation without drinking. Stay strong and if you get weak while your in-laws are there, hope you will come to this board and get a shot of encouragement and support from here, rather than reaching for a shot of that nasty crap.
I identify with time going slowly. If you asked any of us which is longer, the first three weeks or the first year, most would say the first three weeks! Today you did what it takes to stay sober. Hang in there
Very true sunnyk... now that my thinking is changing I am much more able to accept them for who they are, even when its tough for me sometimes. They always mean the best and I know that is my defects that make me feel how I do around them. We had a nice day with them and I didn't ruin it, so they could enjoy their granddaughter.
