life is pretty calm. Not much self generated stress or drama. It has been that way for a bit. I like real life. and i remember what i do :)
Looking back after reading some great posts here today, I remember feeling a generalized anxious feeling in early sobriety....
when would the other shoe drop? When would some incident be discovered? When would some random charge hit my credit card? I swore people kept putting extra drinks on my CC....
But just take away alcohol and so much self destructing stops. It is never ok to forget that. If added back, it will pick up right where it left off.
it is good to see the old timers with decades sober. It s good to see the new guy or gal with 2 days dry. Perspective. It is so simple. The examples are always before me, as well as my own experiences. Recovery talk is fun, spiritual thoughts are uplifting, but for me it is a life and death choice in the end. I choose life at this moment. I pray for the grace to choose life tomorrow.
....our personal adventures before and after make clear three pertinent facts:
(a) That we were alcoholic and could not manage our own lives.
(b) That probably no human power could have relieved our alcoholism.
(c) That God could and would if He were sought.
-- Edited by Sober Strummer on Saturday 19th of October 2013 04:29:08 PM
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"I spent a lifetime in hell and it only took me twelve steps to get to heaven."
"Experience is not what happens to you; it's what you do with what happens to you."
That's sounding like an old timer and I know that recovery is about duplication and when I duplicate what the oldtimer learned and passes on that I will get what the oldtimer has gotten...sobriety growing one day at a time and I know also that when I pass it on and watch it work for another alcoholic that program does work when you work it. Simple program...
Ya know, I think the feeling of time passing is starting to be felt. A few friends are now dead and gone over addictions. My daughter has become a wonderful wife and mother. Time has marched on.
I am seeing that it can happen. Slowly the promises sneak up on you. I'm no long timer. April 1 2015 will be 20 years. Nobody is more surprised than I am. It does not feel like I really did much. I was willing. My HP did it. And so it went. Repeatedly it was willingness powered by grace.
With the new folks passing thru, I just want to share that no matter how wrecked you are, no matter ow hopeless you are...
The ABC's are where it's at. There is hope. There is power. Just be willing...
I'm watching college football with my bride today. Just popping on here during commercials. I am living the life I never dared to wish to have. As a terrible person, a sorry drunk, that was unthinkable. But something happened. Something that came in a big blue book.
Today is a day to just look around at friends and family and say thank you to my God.
Peace to you all.
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"I spent a lifetime in hell and it only took me twelve steps to get to heaven."
"Experience is not what happens to you; it's what you do with what happens to you."
Great stuff SS...I love it!
The ABC's...The two parts of step one and step two. I was convinced...Thanks to God for the willingness
and the directions in that big blue book.
