Just checked back and so glad that you posted again. I am sorry that you had a difficult night. I just went through that a few nights ago and can relate. What difficulty(ies) are you having that are troubling you? Whatever you feel comfortable posting, not trying to be nosy, but I don't know how to help you because I don't have much info to go on. If your problem is alcohol related you came to the right place. This board is full of experience and knowledge from alcoholics. I am new in the program (I have a few months of sobriety). If I cannot help you, there are other folks with longer sobriety time that can. I am glad that your EAP helped you get through the rough night you had.
-- Edited by betterthanyesterday52 on Thursday 17th of October 2013 07:09:09 AM
I am sorry I wasn't on here earlier and hope that you are better. Do you have any AA numbers you can call? Please post to let us know how you are, we care.
Thank you both. It was a difficult night. I contacted my companies EAP. That was a little helpful. I don't have any AA numbers so whatever you have to offer is really appreciated.
Hi bjc, ... Welcome to MIP ... I saw your post a little earlier but had to leave and take the wife to work ... long story ... sorry I didn't have the time to respond immediately (that's kinda unusual for me) ... anyway ... let us know a little more about you and what brought on this 'difficult night' you refer to ... are you having problems tied to alcohol ??? ... We do need a little more info in order to address your area of concern or need ...
Tell us a little about yourself and then the type difficulty you are experiencing ...
God Bless, Pappy
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bic nc, I am so glad you came back and posted. You should feel very proud of yourself for reaching five years of sobriety on your own. Also I am very glad you are in AA and have meetings you are planning to attend. That's what I do....go to at least one meeting and plan the next one I want to go to. I am sorry for your loss. I, as well as most people on this board, have experienced losing people in our lives as a result of drinking. It is very sad. Since I have been sober, some people I thought I lost forever by my drunken behavior, have started to have more trust in me and are slowly coming back into my life.
Staying sober is very hard but well worth the effort we put into it to achieve happiness in our lives. I have realized that I like the sober me a lot better than the intoxicated me, because this is who I really am and every day of sobriety I feel better about myself and don't have to wake up the next day wondering what I said or what I did that may have hurt and/or offended someone. I don't feel the shame I felt everyday. My confidence is improving and life is again worth living. And physically, I feel better which is great because waking up every day with hangovers, headaches, foggy thinking, etc. was not a lot of fun. I used to think I was so different than everyone....a real mess of a person that only knew how to drink and get drunk. That is how I defined myself for a long time. I too have tried to quit on my own. I couldn't do it and I had tried AA, but no longer than two or three weeks. Every time I stopped attending meetings, I started drinking within a day. AA is great for me because I have been around people who are alcoholics like me and I have found I am not so different after all and I am learning how to stay sober by listening to others share how alcohol affected their lives and how they stay sober. I can relate to a lot of the stories in the rooms and think to myself that if they can stay sober after what all they went through, so can I. And when I find myself going through rough patches which weaken my resistance I get myself to an earlier or an extra meeting and I have always felt better and more mentally equipped to handle those rough times.
I have learned also that not drinking anymore is so much easier by telling myself I am going to take this "One Day At A Time". It has been helpful to me every morning when I wake up, to pray to my Higher Power and thank him for keeping me sober the day before and to please keep me sober today. I have heard many other helpful things in the rooms as well as on this board that have helped me. I don't feel alone anymore and know that there are wonderful caring people who want to and are willing to help me. I would love to see more posts from you to let us know how you are doing. We care!
-- Edited by betterthanyesterday52 on Saturday 19th of October 2013 05:22:32 AM
I am in AA for the first time. I'd put together 5 years of sobriety on my own doing what I thought was right. Now I know that I may have been dry, but I was still a drunk. I proved it to myself several weeks ago and lost someone very, very important to me as a result. I've been to two meetings in as many days, another tomorrow morning and another planned for Sunday. But its hard. Very hard.
I am in AA for the first time. I'd put together 5 years of sobriety on my own doing what I thought was right. Now I know that I may have been dry, but I was still a drunk. I proved it to myself several weeks ago and lost someone very, very important to me as a result. I've been to two meetings in as many days, another tomorrow morning and another planned for Sunday. But its hard. Very hard.
Hi bjc, ... Sounds like you are starting off on the right foot this time, good for you ...
Your story reminds me of one of the stories in an earlier BB (AA Big Book) version, of the guy that saw he had a drinking problem and stopped on his own for the remainder of his working career ... then when he retired, he thought it was okay for him to drink again and died a drunk a short time later ... this disease never leaves us, we simply learn that there is a spiritual, NOT a religious, solution to our problem ... and once we have worked the 12 steps, we have changed into the real person that we never realized we could be when drinking ...
For a lot of people that come to AA, they have this fear of having to come for life ... well ... I went to meetings daily for a long time and then when the promise came true for me, I was then able to balance out the time I spent at meetings and the time at home and work ... it became a great life to have, much better than how I was ... Like BTY said, we discover who we are or at the very least, the person we could be ... it's a million times better on 'this' side of the alcoholic fence ... Sobriety had to become our number 1 priority in life, else we had no life to enjoy ...
I'm glad you came back to this board and I pray you stick around for a while ... you are helping to keep us sober whether you realize it or not and we pray we can do the same for you ... that's the reason this program works ... one alcoholic talking to another alcoholic WORKS when no other method will ... ... ...
Love ya and God Bless,
Pappy
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