Welcome...I'm glad to hear you are working the steps. That is the solution for people like us. I didn't get into drugs as much as you did...But I managed to reach the same dark results with alcohol alone....Damned near killed me. I'm glad you are here.....And alive to talk about it. Congrats on your time.
I can relate totally to the alcoholism part of your share, you sound just like one of us. Like Stepchild, I don't have any experience with drugs, but like many here I have a lot of experience of recoery and the 12 steps. We are glad you have joined us and look forward to hearing more of your ESH.
Welcome to MIP Ben78, ... glad you're here and doing well ... your story sounds almost identical to some other nurses I know ... you're in the right place ... we're glad you're here!
Love ya and God Bless, Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
Aloha Ben and welcome to the board. Now we've heard your story and it sounds pretty exclusive...hard addiction and I relate to the statement "I still want it. BAD." You're not alone now you've got a whole mass of recovering alcoholics and addicts standing with you who have read your story. Have you read your story as if you were one of us? I was told to do that and led to do that and what changed for me was that I came to want my recovery much worse than the alcohol I. I was and still am pretty chemically tolerant and relate to accelerated and increased use so it was dangerous for me and I didn't know it. Good to have you here. Listen for the instructions and follow without complaining or reluctance and then miracles will come your way. If you are more N/A get the N/A literature and Big Book and a sponsor. Don't be alone with yourself because you don't know how to do this yet without help. Keep coming back (((((hugs)))))