i just found this website. after 5 days of binge drinking i went tonight to the first meeting i've been to in months. i've known for a long time that i'm an alcoholic and i've been in and out of the program, had months, even years of sobriety, and here i am again, on another day one i have 2 children that are everything to me, a job that i love, and so many good things in my life. i don't want to lose them. i got a 24-hour chip tonight and i was terrified - it was an anniversary meeting so there were 50+ people in the room and i had to walk past them all. but it only took a moment, i survived, and i'm glad i did it. i'm glad to be here, too. thank you for reading.
Great Job, you'll find if you keep check out this page combined with face to face meetings is your best steps. I've been sober now for 4 months thanks to this site is really great!
Welcome to MIP 'pugmom', ... ... ... I have a drawer full of white chips myself ... I am reminded of the part of the promises by your post ... :
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly . They will always materialize if we work for them.
Love ya and God Bless,
Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
I love the Avatar...hope that ain't a morning after look on the pug's face. Good for you coming back. That is what I was encouraged to do over and over...Keep coming back. I learned early on from the old timers that you don't get to go back out without taking your program with you and relapses become more difficult. Glad you came back home. For me I never did get a 24 hour chip. My first chip was at 16 years. I never made the length of my sobriety an issue and each year remained anonymous until a local AA member took the time to check my sobriety date and surprised me with a chip. That was awesome...not because I got the chip. I was totally taken back by it. What was awesome was finding out that this disease always lurks and is ready to send messages to keep us out there. For me the message was when I was handed the chip, "Okay you're cured now...you can leave" and I was surprised at the sudden urge to get thru the front entrance. With the exception of two new comers, planted by HP who sat in the back corner of the room and who both shouted "keep coming back", I might have tested the "cure". My history includes drinking until toxic shock or overdose and from my research my body wouldn't survive one of those now. I hang around relapsers. These have the information about going back out. One of the questions I always ask them is, "What were you thinking before you decided to drink again"? You can answer if you like...that is only for me. I have never lost the compulsion to drink...I've never acted on it since I first quit. I have had very near graphic misses involving the chemical and my delusionary alcoholic mind and still never finally acted on the drink while I participated in the process. Because of the recovering alcoholics in my life and their ESH and all of the other tools of the program...each day I get farther away. We can do this together. Thanks for showing up and sharing. ((((hugs))))
