Well my wife finally went off the deep end with her mental illness and tried to kill herself and also assaulted me again. My kids are currently away. She has completely lost it with her bipolar this time. I'm left with no choice but to file a restraining order and to seek full custody of the kids. I wish this wasn't so but she is going to drive me to drink. I need to take care of myself first. I'm still praying on it and talking to my sponser. Any help would be great right now I'm so depressed and hurt.
I'm sorry for what you are going through...All I can say is you are doing the right things...You know this is something alcohol won't make better....Alcohol won't make anything better. Anyway you can get to a meeting?....I don't think I've ever left one where I didn't feel better. Prayers sent HJF.
HJF...that very sad to hear. This surely is a Leg go and Let God thing along with prayer. Do what you know to do and certainly don't let her drive you to drink...hide the keys oh and I get it...don't walk to drink, hitch to drink, drive yourself to drink...Don't drink at all. Stay in your program her insanity isn't justification for your loss of sobriety...Nothing justifies that insanity. Keep coming back.
Well my wife finally went off the deep end with her mental illness and tried to kill herself and also assaulted me again. My kids are currently away. She has completely lost it with her bipolar this time. I'm left with no choice but to file a restraining order and to seek full custody of the kids. I wish this wasn't so but she is going to drive me to drink. I need to take care of myself first. I'm still praying on it and talking to my sponser. Any help would be great right now I'm so depressed and hurt.
You might consider professional-level counseling.
You are dealing with some very serious issues. Ones that AA is not capable of solving.
If you drink over this, then you wont be a competent parent either. NOTHING is an excuse to drink. Period. That part does relate to your program. Tanin is right about most of this not being in the scope of AA and/or alanon for her either. It sounds like multiple relationship issues, mental illness and other things combined... Divorce is not going to kill you. Drinking just might.
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
Hi HJF, I'm sorry to hear of the tragedy in your life at present.
At times like this I am reminded of the truth of the Big Book. Many, if not most, of us on this board have been through some dreadful experiences in our sober journey. The book told us this would happen, it refers to the "certain trials and low spots ahead", and it tells us what we need to do and how to do it.
We need to be in fit spiritual condition which we achieve through the steps but most importantly through passing on what we have learned to still other suffering alcoholics. The book tells us we can stay sober in spite of anyone, if we do this and turn in all things to the Father of Light who presides over us all.
In a practical sense this means, when you can find the time among your many responsibilities, rocking up to a meeting and finding the most down and out guy there and trying to help him have a better day. Nothing will so much insure immunity from drinking as intensive work with other alcoholics.
It means asking for strength and guidance to do the right thing by your children and family. Perhaps this may mean getting outside professional help. It means seeking God's will for you and the power to carry it out.
It is a recipe for living that works in rough going. In my experience this is absolutely true:)
Professional help is probably best for you, but please continue to reach out and share here and in alanon. We're not saying don't come here, we're saying please seek help in addition to this, but this at a bare minimum. We're listening, the light is always on.
Living with someone who is unpredictably sick is so disheartening. Especially when they go a long time seeming quite normal and then all of a sudden do a downward spiral. I know I could never get away from it - because it was me. And now my significant other mimics this. But - this too shall pass... and only your alcoholism is the reason you'd drink over this. Nothing else in the world. There is no excuse to drink when you're alcoholic, there is only your disease telling you there is.
Nothing drives you to drink but the disease. You're mad at the disease... not you, not her. Please keep sharing and reaching out. Sounds like you're trying to take care of you right now - and that is something to be proud of.
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
