Today I was driving around running errands when a song started playing in my car that I used to listen to when I was at the height of depressed addiction. The song is called "Sunlight" by a hip hop artist named MC Yogi and it's all about finding a brighter future by letting go. I'll post lyrics at the end of the message. Anyhoots, I used to listen to the song and get choked up and wish so badly that I didn't feel so bad about myself and the world around me. I felt like, intellectually, I understood things could get better but didn't actually think they ever would. Today I am 150 days sober and I really cannot believe how much of a difference it has made in my life. Hearing this song and going back to that place psychologically and then returning to the sober NOW made me feel like I was being doused in light and warmth. When I think about what a miserable person I was 150 days ago (and for the past 10 years) and compare that to how much I have grown in almost half a year, I am floored. Half a year. Wow. Every day is indeed a process and just two weeks I was walloped by cravings, but continuing to do the work and connect and grow has made me fundamentally happier. Sometimes it is good to have a reminder of that.
-Adam
in your darkest day when you cant find your way looking outside all you find is gray confined by the mind trapped inside the cage a slave to what you crave with no way to escape
look behind the mind and you will find the place inside where the sun shines feel it shine like a star inside your heart sunlight shine bright wash away the dark sunlight shine bright wash away the night
we don't need to chase the shadow don't need to wrestle don't need to battle wherever we go it'll always follow go to bed, dream at night, rise up tomorrow
just let it all go, let yourself be hollow empty every drop out of the bottle when you let it all go that's when you'll know sunlight shines bright light up the temple
lost in love, couldn't find my way home trying to find a place where i belong that's when i closed my eyes and heard you say everything is gonna be ok everything is gonna be ok everything is gonna be ok everything is gonna be ok everything is gonna be ok
you don't have to be afraid pull back the curtains open up the shades let the sun shine down on your face sunlight shine bright wash the pain away sunlight shine bright one light one light light up your life one light light up you life one light light up your life one light light up your life one light light up your life one light
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When every situation which life can offer is turned to the profit of spiritual growth, no situation can really be a bad one.-Paul Brunton
