Welcome kj....That's sound advice above from mikef. There is no reason to do this alone. I strongly suggest finding a meeting near you...Go and listen...Tell them you are new and you need help...That's what I did...And I got it. Get a copy of the Big Book...You can get it online also for free...Here is a link...Read it....Try and identify with it. Continue reading and posting here....You can change your life. Question is...What are you willing to do to make that happen? Hope to hear more from you. Lot of good support here.
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I'm going through difficult times and have turned my back on just about everything except alcohol...I finally realize that I cant get through this by myself. I need help so bad...kjjeep27@gmail.com.
we suggest putting down the substance,making a meeting,listening to learn and learning to listen,listen for and seek a sponsor(another alcoholic to help you work through the STEPS),move toward what WE consider our Solution ..the application of the STEPS,worked with a sponsor and applied in all areas of our lives.You can go to www.aa.org and find out about the program,read info pamphlets and answer many of your questions..WE do suggest making a face to face meeting as you will meet others just like you willing to share their experience,strength and HOPE on the things they do to remain free from active addiction a day at a time...You have nothing to lose and can refund your misery,if you prefer ,at any given time...WE are here for each other sharing our ESH in a loving and caring manner.WE suffer from a physical,mental and spiritual illness and once we put the substance down WE begin our healing through daily work...Come in from the storm,there is a life truly better than any you have known in recovery just need to be willing to do whatever it takes.Keep coming back let us know how your doing...In support and prayer....
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Aloha KJ and welcome to the board...you have done the most important first step there is...you've deminished your ego and reached out for help...that you have reached out to people who know how to stop and stay sober is most important...If you get into doing what we do a big part of your problem will be temporarily solved. Temporarily because we only have a 24 hour reprieve. We do have a compulsion of the mind and allergy of the body for a mind and mood altering chemical which if not arrested by total abstinence will result in the insanity you are tallking about now and progress into death. I also did what Mike suggested...went to meetings, sat down...all the way down...listened with an open mind...asked for clarification for what I didn't understand...got a big book and a sponsor and practiced, practiced, practiced what I was taught. After a while the chemical will loose it's hold over you and other things will rage however as you continue to be involved with and in the life of the program and your sponsor...you will emerge within the recovery we have. Don't try this alone with the same brain you drink with...keep reaching out and using the brain of a sober group. Keep coming back (((((hugs)))))
I hit the worst period of my life in my mid 30's and recognized that entering recovery for my alcoholism was the first place to start in climbing out of the hole I was in. It was so harsh. Lots of growing pains. 5 years have passed (almost) since I got sober and it was worth the work. 40 feels a whole lot better for me than 35. There is hope. Life is good if you work on yourself and dedicate yourself to recovery.
So...while you only typed out 1 sentence there, it summed up my experience and I really feel where you are coming from. Keep coming back.
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
hello KJ, go to an AA meeting as soon as possible, if you don't know where a meeting is call the AA hotline. go to a meeting every day and don't drink between meetings. if you are willing to do whatever it takes to stay sober, the AA program will help you have a real life. if you can't find your local AA help line, you can call 1-800-662-HELP . keep coming back. you are not alone, all of us in this group have been right where you are. the onlly difference is we started taking the AA steps ahead of you... the only requirement for joining AA is the desire to stop drinking. jj
