Today I've been thinking about isolation as part of the disease. The isolation has always sort of disguised itself as a sulk/mediatation but I'm beginning to see it as a hiding place where my disease can grow and therefore something to be avoided.
Yes, I think you are on the right track regarding isolation. One one hand we need to be happy enough in our own skin to be alone, but isolation isn't good either.
I have my faults but isolation wasn't one of my MO's
There is an old AA saying>>>>
-- Edited by Rob84 on Thursday 6th of June 2013 10:15:10 PM
hi, my name is sheila and i am an alcoholic. when i was drinking i was ashamed and locked myself up in my house. i would not answer the door if i had been drinking. which was most likely, because i started my day with an eye opener and kept drinking all day long. i avoided people, avoided thinking, avoided responsibility, avoided answering the phone... i was miserable and would not admit it. it took me years to accept what i was and become willing to do whatever it takes to get sober and stay sober just for today. if i think about staying sober the rest of my life (even though that is my wish) it can weigh too heavy on me and i could get squirrely over it. best to stay in today and go to meetings, work the steps. because i am sober and have a program i do not have to avoid others, be ashamed of my past, i can find out who i really am, and pursue my passions. i can get sad over how many years it took for me to find my real life, or start just each day anew with a new attitude, doing the best i can for myself and others, leaving the past in the past where it belongs, along with self imposed isolation. fear of people, places, and things is no longer part of my life. if fear pops up, i have tools to use and people to call. we are in this together, being alone is a choice now, not a by product of fear. jj/sheila
p.s. i choose to not be alone, most of the time.
-- Edited by jj on Friday 7th of June 2013 11:06:02 AM
