I have been feeling profoundly grateful as of late. I'm not sure why, but a lot of the inner turmoil that is usually my constant companion seems to have settled a tad as of late. Just a quick list of reasons off the top of my head. 1) I'm sober 2) my HP is always with me- He's my buddy 3) I'm not a TOTAL bitch all the time anymore (only on occasion... When it's necessary haha) 4) I don't hate everyone and everything around me today 5) my apartment is fit to live in now 6) I can handle going to the grocery store without being wasted 7) I spoke to my mother today and didn't feel the need to tell her she was a terrible mother 8) I eat now.. Everyday... More than once 9) my prayers no longer involve asking God why He's cursed me 10) I can walk by a bar and not have to cross the street to avoid walking in by accident. That's it- I'll stop at 10, though I could go on. Feel free to add your own lists :)
Great post ... 1st --- I'm grateful that you stuck around long enough to be posting a gratitude list like the one you just did ... some day you will know the great sense of heart-felt warmth it gives you to know that your friend has made great progress in their life ... that is the feeling you just gave me ...
I am grateful that I have learned to care for others now-a-days (or at the very least, wish for them all the happiness they can find) ... ... ... I am glad I don't have the 'greed' I once felt, that I don't think now, that everything is about me, that I now know that other people have 'feelings' too ...
I am grateful for the nature I see around me, from my dog Rose, to the birds and their music ... and for my 'tomato' plants that are starting to bloom ... for the smell of 'fresh cut grass' and the smell of rain during a storm ...
I am grateful for great friends in AA and on this 'web site' who have taught me what it's like and 'how to' be a human in alcoholic recovery ... I truly never knew that people could, in fact, love each other so much ... to give of their time and share their ESH with total strangers ... Oh Lord, to think ... ... ... if I'd had that first drink, I'd have missed it!!!
Love you guys and God Bless, Pappy
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The promises coming true in my life, the new freedom and happiness. Fear of the future is gone, knowing I have a design for living that will always work, I have nothing to hide, no lies to remember, I know my mother was proud of me when she passed. I have faith and trust in God.
Besides that: I actually go to the grocery store and rarely eat fast food, my wife keeps the house clean, and I'm usually not living with a B#tch
-- Edited by Rob84 on Friday 10th of May 2013 11:02:22 PM
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Thats a very reassuring share Col...I can take the risk of expressing gratitudes...Wow that would have out stretched my imagination during the drinking years. Thanks for the share...(((hugs)))
I love it Col. I really can relate because now I can talk to your mother and I don't feel the need to tell her she is a terrible mother. Dean, I think your mom is hot. Happy Mom's Day in advance! Tom
-- Edited by turninggrey on Saturday 11th of May 2013 10:21:40 AM
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