I will definitely share my story, as it is quite lengthy, in time. I just wanted to comment on the meeting tonight and how amazing that it is that we have a tool such as online communication to share our experiences. I am feeling so much more confident about starting on this road to recovery than before. Thank you for all who gave me such strength tonight to go forward tomorrow in participating in my first live group meeting. I am feeling blessed that I have met someone that has had such a similiar experience as I am having. My HP never ceases to amaze me. Even at my worst, he is always at his best. I will definitely be back tomorrow!
Amanda
An Alcoholic, with officially one day sober and counting!
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"Most people are not really free. They are confined by the niche in the world that they carve out for themselves.They limit themselves to fewer possibilities by the narrowness of their vision."
It took me a long time realize that all I have to do is stay away from one drink, for one day. I'd heard that said a lot and it had never sunk in. I was utterly baffled by the prospect of recovery. And then one day, at meeting I was visiting being held in a different country I was visiting, the chair said that, and it finally sunk in. I can't describe the feeling.
Well welcome (again... officially hehe) I am so glad you found the chat helpful! We will be here for you whenever you need! So happy you're going to find a meeting, let us know how it goes! hugs
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Thanks for everything. Peace and Love on your journey.
That's great Amanda, ... ... ... finding a meeting is a great step forward for you ... I felt it a privilege to be a part of last night's meeting with you ... and I'm doubly proud that Tasha and Dori were there to share their experience, strength, and hope with you ...
Stick around, you ain't seen nothin' yet ... HeeeHeee
Pappy
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
To update, I went to my first meeting last night. Before I left the house I was so nervous I forgot to check the weather and the bus schedule. As we have just moved here from the US and we do not have our car up here, public transportation is the only way to go. I could have walked it...the meeting was only 9 blocks away. I left early as I was unsure what to expect being new to the group. I walked outside completely unprepared for the weather. It was cold and drizzling! I thought I can take it for a few minutes while I wait for the bus because I was determined to be early. Needless to say the bus took 20 minutes, thank goodness for a covered bus stop near my apartment. I felt like it was never was going to come and I was going to miss the meeting all together. I started getting really worried because I really needed to attend a meeting last night. I kept praying that the bus would just come...and it finally did. But not once did I say I will just go tomorrow. I know tomorrow is my way of putting off the feelings of nervousness and anxiety about meeting new people.
The meeting was very low key and there were only a few us there. But I was pleased to see a large number of people my age and with only a few days, months of sobriety. The facilitator was not invasive and simply asked each of the two newcomers (myself), if we would like to share. I have been notourious in the past about not sharing so I decided to step out of my comfort zone and share...a little. I kept it very brief as I was overly emotional and nervous. I felt so much more calm afterward. It felt good to be surrounded by other peoople that are struggling with alcholism and could relate to the feelings I have.
To be honest I was not particularly fond of the step up of the meeting so I thought I would a different group a try tonight and try the group last night on a different night.
I have heard that you will not always get something that will sink in at every meeting but last night I took something away that a woman shared in regard to worrying. She stated that worrying was her way of being trying to control her situations. So she wasn't living life on life's terms. I have the same problem so today I thought I would pray to my HP, just for today to help me let go of the outcome of my day and just go with what my day has to offer. I working on it!
I will post again after my meeting tonight and let everyone know how it goes. I was so exhausted last night when I got home I went straight to bed :)
Thanks again!
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"Most people are not really free. They are confined by the niche in the world that they carve out for themselves.They limit themselves to fewer possibilities by the narrowness of their vision."
Great share Evol, ... ... ... I have finally stopped trying to get my wife to stop worrying 'bout things ... I keep telling her that 'worry' does not help a situation out one iota ... Worrying accomplishes nothing more than making the worrier sicker ... (she worry's enough for the both of us, so I don't find it necessary on my end ...)(it's a waste of time in my book)
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'Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything.'
