So hard to return after 22 years of distractions... I tossed away 5 years of sobriety to go to school and many other productive things however I mind f***ed myself into thinking I could drink again. I finally hit another bottom as I made my liver sick from chugging beers like Spring Break. And for what? I was having nightmares and was afraid to go to sleep! What a fool I was! Well, I almost have my 30 days sober and I feel good about getting that evil spirit outta here!
I'm temporarily having some problems getting to a meeting. So, thought I would do the next best thing and come here...
Welcome home Don...we've all been doing it one day at a time so we're all on the same page. Me I sidel up with relapsers and listen close just because I know the disease doesn't quit trying. You can mentor how it went for me and us as much as you want cause that experience is what's of value. Trouble getting to meetings? Do you happen to be in that rare country or place where AA isn't? Keep coming back...
I think there's an invisible principle of living...if we believe we're guided through every step of our lives, we are. Its a lovely sight, watching it work.
Welcome Dori. There are two parts to the first step instruction. We had to fully concede to our innnermost selves that we were alcoholic- straight forward enough, but for as long as I missed the next bit, I couldn't stay sober. "The delusion that we are like other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed"
Hopefully, that delsuion is now smashed beyond repair.
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