Made my first amends

Pythonpappy · MIP Old Timer

Made my first amends

RubyTues · MIP Old Timer

It went well, but I am experiencing a lot of grief and sadness. This too shall pass.

Pythonpappy · MIP Old Timer

I had mixed emotions too ... ... ... Joy and Happiness ... ... ...

Why the grief??? ... ... ... You should realize that that load of garbage is gone ... no reason to keep it around now, it's over ... now, on to the next one !!!

RubyTues · MIP Old Timer

I think it brought up the grief of the loss of that particular relationship.

ChristineG · Senior Member

Glad it went well Ruby.

turninggrey · MIP Old Timer

Good job RT. Honesty does hurt a bit at first, but as you go forward in honesty, it becomes a staple of life.
Tom

mikef · MIP Old Timer

May help with our guilt and others pain, bottom line it is how we continue to find the freedom in our recoveries......Good job ,in support and prayer.... smile ..........

Fyne Spirit · MIP Old Timer

Good job RT. You are getting very close to safe ground. My prayers are with you.

God bless
MikeH.

Rob84 · MIP Old Timer

Hi Ruby,

Glad to hear you are moving along with the steps. Keep moving forward with strength and courage, it will soon be second nature.

Mike B. · MIP Old Timer

Nicely done Ruby! You're lightening your load. Keep moving forward toward freedom. More will be revealed. smile

RubyTues · MIP Old Timer

Thanks, all. I am still feeling a lot of pain this morning, but I am forging ahead.

justadrunk · MIP Old Timer

Be gentle to yourself. I backed into a car that I didn't know was in my driveway this morning. I got about 2 miles down the road and realized I was clubbing myself. Finally, I remembered to talk to myself like I would my own child. "It's okay Natasha, accidents happen. No one got hurt, it's only money." Etc etc

That helped.

So what would you tell a little girl who is feeling raw and emotional? Be gentle with yourself sweetie, it's going to be okay... you did the right thing... I'm so proud of you... take a nice warm bath and relax... have a hot chocolate with marsh-mellows... can I give you a hug???

(((Ruby)))

Go out and find some lingering hugs at a meeting. Wasn't it you who saw Dr. Oz the same day I did when they were talking about 8 lingering hugs per day being super good for your emotional health and so all around health? Who else in this world but us AAers can go out on any day, any time, and find 8 people who will give us a heartfelt hug???? We are SO blasted lucky! I think I will hit up a meeting and get 8 hugs just because! WOOpie it's great to be me!!! (And you)

RubyTues · MIP Old Timer

Thank you, Tasha! I could use a hug (or eight) for sure. This one has really thrown me for a loop. I'm also trying praying along the lines of Pappy's suggestion. This amends was regarding something a number of years ago, and I've been really surprised at how much pain was immediate. Like no time had passed.

Conscious · Member

Congrats Ruby! The 9th step is so incredibly powerful in many ways. It can be painful..at first. But I hope you soon find the freedom that will come from it! I love Pappy's post, he is so right in that you may just find that you really did unlock the door to something bigger and better. My brother's 9th step with me opened a door for us that had been closed for many, many years...

This too shall pass, and you will find a weight lifted! Hugs from Portland.

Pythonpappy · MIP Old Timer

Thanks Conscious ... ... ... you are so right ... this step unlocked the barrier between me and my sister ... our relationship was never very good, but now?, it's better than ever ...