Never cease to be grateful for sober mornings. Waking up without a pounding head, feeling like being sick or actually being sick, sweat on the forehead as I try and recall last nights' e-mails and social networking, what did I do, etc. Basically not waking up in hell.
For a lot of folks I listen to, sobriety can mean things like new jobs, new hobbies, newfound solvency, whatever.
That stuff is great.
But for me, sober mornings are the greatest. All sober potential follows on from them. :)
Steve
-- Edited by SteveP on Sunday 14th of April 2013 06:55:25 AM
I feel the exact same way. When I was drinking, the worst part was always the mornings. Most days I would wake up between 3-4am in a panic and a carnival of shittiness would ensue in my head. I would feel paralyzed by guilt and shame, thinking to myself of all the horrible drunk memories festering inside me. I would slink into the kitchen for cold water, which my body felt entirely depleted of, and drink cup after cup, hating myself. After pacing in my living room, trying to piece together everything from the night before, I would get back in bed and wish I was dead - feeling covered in a heavy blanket of illness and pain and regret. It was, as you said, hell. And this is how I started every day.
Since getting sober, I've become more of a human and less of a tortured monster. And I appreciate every day. Even those mornings in which I wake up panicked about something job or family related have NOTHING on those mornings of hell.
Anyway, glad you're in a good place. You deserve it. Thanks for contributing this post, because reading and writing on this topic is the most effective way for me, personally, to stay there :)
Adam
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When every situation which life can offer is turned to the profit of spiritual growth, no situation can really be a bad one.-Paul Brunton
Funny enough, I woke up with a headache this morning. I took a moment to remember why I used to wake up with headaches and to be thankful that that wasn't the reason this time!
I have a love affair with mornings too. Not long after getting sober, I got offered a great job that requires me to work a few early mornings each week. By early, I mean getting up just before 4:00 a.m. I could have never, ever done this while drinking. No matter how little sleep I get, I wake up grateful and fully refreshed when the alarm goes off. I could sleep in a bit longer but I feel compelled to spend a time in prayer and meditation during the dark morning hours. It is such a blessing to be sober and to have a Higher Power to thank each and every day for that miracle.
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I think there's an invisible principle of living...if we believe we're guided through every step of our lives, we are. Its a lovely sight, watching it work.
